I feel it coming, I know it’s going to happen again. I’m slowly being replaced again. I know it, and I hate it. It always happens. Every year. What is my problem that I’m always being replace all the time?! I don’t tell anyone about my mental issues. No one knows about it other than some of my family. But no one at school knows about the things that go through my head, they all think I’m fine as far as I know. I don’t know, I should be used to this, It’s been happening every year. I can’t keep a friend, and I hate myself for it. I guess that’s one of the reasons I started self harming again.
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I feel for you. You have to solve some troubles right?
I’m sorry 🙁 I know how you feel it sucks loosing friends and the feeling that you’re alone with your depression or anxiety or whatever else crappy feeling you may have. Just know you have people here who care and will listen to you vent or let it out or whatever anytime you need. And as a self harmer myself I hope you can find another outlet for your pain if not be careful. I do the rubber band on wrist trick when I’m not where I can cut. It works for a little bit for me but again I understand the relief you get from it. So just remember those scars don’t go away.
School, no matter what level or age group(college too) follows and fosters a pack mentality. There are lots of convenient relationships that get traded in for more convenient relationships and everyone just wants to survive. That was brutal for me. Sounds like you are feeling that casual cruelty really strongly. Truly loyal and caring people often get shafted in a hierarchical structure.