Ok lets put this in perspective; im a 19 year old boy and a uni 2nd year.
At the beginning of 1st year i had a group of around 5 friends. Now i have 2 because we bullied them away for being imperfect.
I was dating one of those 2 for over a year and he says he doesnt want to be with me anymore. His reason being i didnt do anything he wanted me to even though he never asked…
Anyway yesterday they both decided to tell me they dont care about me and i should “just do it”. Then proceeded to make fun of me for wanting to stay with my boyfriend and actually trying to work out the problems. (It didnt work)
But now i have litetally no friends and i live in a house with those 2 constantly feeling like theyre judging me and ive had enough ive done nothing but try my best to be a good friend and they just throw it back in my face.
Every time i find something close to happiness it gets taken away again and i dont know if im even supposed to be happy am i being punished for something???? I just want to die ive been suicidal for years but theres always been something keeping me going but there isnt anymoe and ive had enough.
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Wow….I find it crazy how hard it is to find real friends nowadays. I mean maybe it’s always been this way but it feels nearly impossible to make real friends. I wonder why.
Eh fuck them both they ain’t worthy of a good friend like you. Maybe you try so hard because your gay and it’s hard to find another guy??? Just saying but there’s plenty of fish in the sea and friends who will love you for who you are 🙂
Maybe? Not sure really honestly im pretty antisocial and awkward so its hard to make friends in the first place so yeah. Just wish actual friends were easier to come by
A new definition of “friend” may be in order.
“we bullied them away for being imperfect.”
seems like the shoe’s on the other foot except you’re on the side of being held to something impossible.
if it’s viable seek out new housing as soon as you can and try to chalk it up to a learning experience. you met those people at uni in the first place, there’s a good chance you can connect with others in class too.