this is yet another poorly written recent life story. sorry its shitty. and thanks for letting me use the email if you read this <3
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“i hope you stay okay for as long as you can.”
11 easy words that i needed to hear today. they translate into other sayings such as “are you still okay?” , “everything will be okay.” and my absolute favorite “i care enough to check on you”.
i sat in a daze. not knowing where i was. i looked around and noticed the little poster on the wall saying “never look back” and a small trophy with a soccer ball on the top and then i noticed my shirt thrown on the chair. my body was currently occupying a space in this room and when it happened i was currently unaware. i sat up and the room seemed to spin alittle faster than normal and my small frame was shaking in the cold air. i was naked. i dug around in the floor for my phone.
THREE NEW MESSAGES
“hey, i couldn’t find you at the party so i just left. hope ur ok.”
“honey are you okay me and your dad are worried sick. emily said you weren’t at her house. please come home.”
“please be okay.”
finally getting home it all came back. how could i let this happen again.
the next day i sat in my room. still haven’t eaten, answered and messages, talked to anyone, haven’t slept but thats okay. i lit my bowl and sat in the same place. suddenly got a text “i hope you stay okay for as long as you can.” everything clicked and i awoke from the daze that i’ve been in. the numbness that was consuming me. all it took was that one text. i never looked back.
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That’s cool, so the world flipped you? Or did you flip it? I could never find a way to describe that.
In some was I guess both.
I liked this a lot.