I need some help..

have you told anyone at all whats been going on? for me, i never wanted to tell anyone about my issues, but it got to a point where i told a friend i really trusted who then ended up calling my mom to take my to the local hospital. i was mad at them at first, but i can honestly tell you, since that phone call has been made things have gotten better. no, im not “magically” cured or anything, but having a support system in place really makes living this shitty life just a little bit easier. at some points, yes it is annoying. and yes, i still actively want to kill myself. but i cannot tell you how much better i feel knowing that since ive gotten help there are people out there who genuinely care about me, and not just because its their job. i mean youre life is not going to get miraculously better, and you will still feel like shit, but its just something that has helped me cope with all the shit ive been going through