I’ve gone insane. I want to die, but I can’t go through with suicide.
I’ve been betrayed by everyone. I’ve become heartless as a result.
I tried being a nice guy. I tried being everyone’s friend. It doesn’t work.
You can’t be nice to anyone. If you do, someone will punish you for it.
There is no point in trying to better myself. It won’t make anyone care.
I tried online dating, but couldn’t get a single date. Over a month of chatting, and no one wants to meet me. I am completely and totally undesirable. I will be alone forever.
Some people think they have it bad. They have no idea. Live in poverty with no friends, and your family hates you. Then tell me you have it bad. Then tell me you want to commit suicide.
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I feel you. I’ve been without anyone for almost a year now. I keep telling myself the same things. Trying to be a lone wolf. But if I am a lone wolf. Why can I miss someone. Why can I miss interaction in the real world? I try to ignore it. But I’m not sure if it is just causing me more harm. I’ve always been the outcast in society. Even I had “friends”… I was always on the outside circle. I’m feel like a ghost. So I try to be a silent ghost and do my own thing. Not letting anyone bother me. I have my computer, I have my internet friends. Screw the real world. My life is on here. Not outside that door. And it’s been so for ~10 years. I’m a shut in. Anyone who comes too close to me, I just end up hurting them even if it is unintentional. And you think you’re cold. I’m freezing. Though I try not to think about it and hide that fact. I don’t think I have it so bad. Sure I might be suicidal. But there are people feeling worse than me. That is a fact that somewhat contains me.
If you wanna meet some genuinely great people who don’t judge and will accept you for who you are. You can always hangout with some of the more active SP members on Waveform.
suicideproject.org/2017/02/bored-suicidal-insane/
@deadflowers can that be accessed only on a computer? Or can a smart phone go too?
I’m not sure. So far chrome on desktop seems to be working with it. Chrome on mobile is stripped down a little, but you can try.