So I finally manage to summon up the motivation from who knows where to draw paint anything figure I have plenty of inspiration in my pain.. Turns out I can’t. That was the one thing I had. Is that really it? Has it been that fucking long I cannot manouver a fucking paintbrush properly? Did I just arrogantly take my talent for granted? Where the fuck has it gone? Without this I am fucking nothing. Spent too much time wallowing in my own shit pit of self pity when I should have been using it channelling it all into the one thing I actually gave a shit about instead of wasting away gaming and crocheting fucking pointless fucking games characters and hats anyone can fucking do that but I actually had something real and now I cannot find it. I thought it would always be there. Pease come back. I promise from this day forward to draw or paint every day. Big, small, quick/ time consuming whatever. This is my only hope. I’m so fucking stupid.
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step 1: start out easy, draw a stickman.. then draw 2, one stabbing the other, advance the technique add bloodsplatter
step 2: graduate to draw mickey mouse heads, mega man, until you feel the confidence to render Sylanas in all her splendor
step 3: then paint a rose, crumble it up, paint it again, repeat, again and again and paint it a thousand time, until you can finally hold it and smell it
step 4: take advantage of the mental “illness”, discard a body part, get entire museum/gallery in your own name
don’t be your own worst critic, a skill, talent, or gift, is very rarely lost completely nor forever, give yourself a chance before you condemn yourself entire
*Sylvanas
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don’t despair….after not doing art for a while, i also felt like i had “lost” the talent
it’s…scary, i know, because it’s integral to who you are
the thing is though, in my case, i hadn’t lost it, it just took a little practice to get back into the rhythm
i’m pretty sure it’ll be the same for you
start small, and gradually build up the complexity
the inspiration will come after you get a feel for the materials again
and don’t be hard on yourself
life is tough. sometimes we fall…and then we get up again. and that’s okay.
forgive yourself. this is not your fault. you did not chose for it to be this way. you were hurt. you are just hurting.
you are still strong. not made-of-steel strong, no human is, but strong enough to try despite it all, which is quite enough.
your talent is still there. it’s just been dormant. your brain/body need some more practice to remember both how to paint/draw/etc. and how to find inspiration.
when you get back into it, you will also get back into the (subconscious) habit of scanning your surroundings/thoughts/feelings for something that can be rendered visually…i.e inspiration will find you easier
i hope things work out for you. keep at it…
It’s still there, and you’re not stupid. Don’t try to force it. It’ll always be there, it will be there when you need it. Putting jalapeños in breakfast cereal, THAT’S stupid.
I am sure, much like others here, that your talent isn’t gone.. Yes, there may be a bit of a block, but it doesn’t mean your talent is gone. It just means that you may take a little longer to come up with something, but you will soon! And it’ll be great too, I’m sure of it. 🙂
wasting away gaming and crocheting fucking pointless fucking games characters and hats
Sometimes these things are an addiction. Sometimes they are a much needed coping mechanism.
There have been plenty of times in my life I hung on to a pointless activity until I got so fed up I made a change. Other times I wasn’t fed up – I peacefully decided to walk away from what I was doing and tried something new.
Whatever works for you. You will do something else when it’s time. Use desire or anger or hope or acceptance if you have it. Despair ALWAYS demotivates you, so try to minimize that.
Now, to the task at hand, do something simple and don’t censor yourself. Post it here and let us rip it apart. When I say simple, I mean something that takes five minutes.
Ask us for suggestions. Sometimes doing a job for someone else takes the pressure off. If you want, draw the tiny house and tiny peat bog I want to retire to with my hot Irish wife. We will use peat for the roof and the grass will grow on it.
I want to live in a grass house.. I can do my best Irish accent, Northern? We can call it The Shire..
Unfortunately I don’t think I can upload anything as I’m on my mobile most of the time..