It’s quite a bizarre thing. It’s mine, and I should be able to do whatever I like with it but I can’t. Want’s to keep me a prisoner. How can you beat the damn thing? It’s being tortured but it still want’s to go on and on and on. Damn you brain..
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the longer I procrastinate it the more my mind dwells on the pain of death, philosophy and ethics. On earth it just looks like the body shuts down but what would it actually feel like and do we go to hell for destroying ourselves before an appointed time, when life is so rare and we may only get one shot at it. If there was on off switch and I knew there was no consequence or pain ofc I’d press it. Not being born in the first place would always be better Imo
Life isn’t really rare, there are billions of people in the world today or who have lived in the past. If there are people on other planets then add in countless billions or trillions more. We’re just a grain of sand on the beach, no one will care about our problems a hundred years from now.
indeed
damn you brain
damn you body in general …
so fucking intent on staying alive
despite our best efforts
and true. we are just grains of sand. smaller even, as in electron-sized importance.
completely and utterly insignificant.
the thing is we do have choices and chances (or at least the illusion that we do…though that’s a question for another time) while we’re alive … in the end it doesn’t matter what life you live, we all live, we all die … so i guess in that way you can try everything, literally, before deciding on self-destruction. we fuck up only relative to human constructs, ultimately what one does is neither right nor wrong – in a universal context such constructs don’t exist … there is a freedom to thinking that way.
there is also a meaningless that is hard to stomach, partly because we are so used to believing that we, humans, are special, that our lives mean something, that our existence isn’t just random..it’s ingrained into our philosophies, our beliefs, our institutions, into the very basis of society.
i don’t know…it’s 6 am here, haven’t slept, apologies if my thinking is a little hazy and nonsensical ^-^
also Woody … how are things? ok, bad question, considering the context … but i can’t help but ask it. if ya want to talk more, we’re here …
take care …
“If there was on off switch and I knew there was no consequence or pain ofc I’d press it. Not being born in the first place would always be better Imo”
Not a day goes by where I don’t think about this. I’m convinced that I’m being punished for something I did in a previous life.
It’s a real civil war. Im saying to it “lets get out of here” and it’s saying “no I want another sleep” and I’m saying to it “don’t be a *****, let’s get out of here now” and It’s saying again “I wanna another sleep”.
Who’s gonna win? Stay tuned.
The mind is often our worst enemy. It constantly secretes thoughts … it weaves a web of fiction. There is often no real danger except the one in the mind.
The only way to defeat it is to not take every thought that goes through it seriously. Some scientists think that about 98% of thoughts that the brain generates are repetitive and useless, i.e. not relevant to the present moment/situation. You can easily observe this by just sitting with your thoughts and maybe even noting them down on paper. The mind is like a broken record playing the same old regrets from past years and worries about years to come. None of which are relevant to what’s happening now.
I like analogies. What if you were locked up with a 5 yr old kid telling bathroom/poop jokes all day long and talking about imaginary crocodiles and flying cars ? Would you take that kid seriously ? No, you’d chuckle at his thoughts.
When you start to back away from your own thoughts, they take on a more benign nature, much like leaves passing by down a stream, that you watch from the shore.
If you can step away from the brain, and not get immersed in it, you can harness it as a tool if/when you need it. You can use the brain instead of it using you.
It worked for me.
This really requires that you think for yourself and step away from popular (and flawed) schools of thought. Ask 100 people what they think of the human brain and at least 99 will tell you that it is an absolute wonder. No one will tell you that it is mankind’s biggest enemy and that it creates far more problems than it solves.
We think of intelligence as the ability to use the mind to solve problems. I personally consider true intelligence to be knowing when to shut the mind off so fewer problems are created.