I can’t cope. I’m shit at coping.
If I’m already struggling as a dependent young person, life is just going to get worse. Everyone knows it. Life only gets harder. Don’t tell me about it getting better internally because I know what I’m made of and I’m not made for this.
Shouldn’t letting me die and not live be a viable choice of journey in life? Dying as a premature ending to Life, this great play with scripts and cues destined to end anyway?
Give me a choice now, since I didn’t get a choice in coming to the world. Give me a choice to leave.
It’s only fair that way.
Don’t tell me it’s going to get any better because as long as I am in this body, I will be tortured to no end.
The greatest irony is how all my pain started in a single moment of ecstasy in copulation- pure animal selfishness. 9 months of encased bliss then a journey to hell.
Please, if mankind has any conscience left, let me die. At least grant me the power to be the playwright in this tragic script.
Free me from this torture chamber that is my body.
Burn away the traces of my sad existence.
Scatter my ashes on Earth so trees and flowers can grow.
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I will miss the trees and flowers.
But tempt me no longer.
I know the pain too well.
It is coming for me and it always will and it will never stop until I die.
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<3 agree with this 100% I hope you find your peace soon
“I will miss the trees and flowers.
But tempt me no longer.
I know the pain too well.
It is coming for me and it always will and it will never stop until I die.”
Put so simply, this resonates with me so much. I desperately pretend there is hope, and there’s a chance it might stop, but I know I’m kidding myself…
My heart goes out to you.
There is a choice, all of us on this site know what it is. The “hows, where’s and whens” are entirely up to us. What greater freedom can we have in a world where the powers (assholes) that be claim morality in their defense of life, all the while robbing us blind and using troops to kill in the name of freedom? The choice IS yours, it IS mine, it IS ours. But the price of the choice is the fear and trepidation of making it. Here’s to freedom and peace.
Hope ya find what ya looking for RAP. We’re not bound by their rules and regulations anymore, just by our minds.
RAP I see it your way. We should be able to get support for a decision to die for any reason we choose. Just the opposite has happened obviously. I see two reasons for the absence of a right to die in most countries/situations.
First, the majority can’t imagine our point of view or position and thinks we are just wrong. Small numbers of that majority agitated for the laws that often make us stay here long after we would have otherwise been.
Second is money. At birth you were an economic boost to the medical system, as you grow to school age you are a benefit to a vast number of kiddie stuff suppliers. Now the public education system looks forward to the entitlements that accompany your attendance, colleges then lick their chops, so do employers, and lastly the medical industry looks forward to one last huge bonus before the undertaker has a shot at “celebrating” your life. Now don’t we all feel a little more “special” ?
I couldn’t agree more, I feel it should be everyones right to leave this earth if they wish, I certainly will as soon as I figure it out completely. I am looking for a painless and peaceful way to go where it will be fast and effective. I am severely depressed and lost my partner recently (he passed away), its been hell on earth every since. How can this be acceptable ! that you give everything you have, all the love and energy into building a beautiful future only to have it robbed from you in an instant. You are right my friend, death should be a choice and we SHOULD NOT be made to feel bad about that choice.