I live with my mom, dad, and younger sister. But even I’m living with them, I don’t feel that I belong. My mom always find ways to scold me, even a small mistake she always scold me. Even it’s not my fault.
Wherever I go, I have no place where I belong. I do not have a friend to turn to and I don’t have a friend to talk to about my problem.
I don’t think there is a single person who will be concerned if I die. Because I’m always alone in this world.
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I feel that too, I don’t belong where I am at. I always want to uproot and move elsewhere where no one knows my name or reminds me of my past. Just wanna start afresh.
About your mom scolding you – its a convention, Moms are meant to scold for no reason. Maybe she was frustrated about her life and you never know what’s going on with her. If it impacts you so much and can’t take it anymore, just talk to her and make it straight.
You’ll feel less lonely when you know you’re not the only one to be this way, and SP is one way out.
The black sheep… The lone wolf… Me too and It’s hard.
Does anyone have good days? Or remember a time when, uh, you didn’t frequent a suicide forum?
I think I’ve mentioned before that this darkness is rather new to me but as I look back I still question what it is about me that everyone seems recognise as alienable. I get it now, I can be tough to be around, but I wasn’t always like this