I was expecting something positive to happen over this week and now that Friday is already over I completely lost hope. I am ashamed to face people and face myself. I have no idea how I would survive the weekend. The meds have already been making me tired for the past two days and I feel totally sick now. I just want to dig a hole to jump in and disappear forever. I am a bigtime failure. I gave my best but life slaps me harder than I can take.