I got high the other day and went down my SP story feed and got so scared of what I saw and thought really deeply about it on the side of my entire life to even what others close to me or who ever may of felt about me..I was thinking so deep into each one.. all I could comprehend was that it was disturbing as hell..I think I was having a panic attack because on fact that I’m suicidal.. I’m sober now..and don’t have that same sense anymore sense I’ve came down..Im just In a i wanna die now mood..it may sound like I’m contradicting myself but all I’m saying is that sometimes this stuff we’re thinking and are saying is scary.. btw I don’t have a tolerance on drugs like I use to.. so I really felt that.. last night I tryed to scratch my face off.. I’m feeling sorta okay now.. just smoking a cigarette every 5- to 10mins to numb the sorrow..