January the 28th. That’s when I did my first suicide attempt, but I sadly enough failed that day.
Well, I tried it again yesterday. This time by overdosing myself. I just took a bunch of pills with the hope that I would die. I threw some of them up, but just took some extra pills afterwards. Right now I feel really awful; my stomach feels warm, my heart hurts, I feel dizzy and a lot more.. It really sucks that my suicide attempt failed.
I really am a failure..
Bye
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IDK if you had followed SP regularly you’d know that OD doesn’t kill anyone, does only more harm than kill. It sucks, yeahhh!
I know that the killing rate is low, but it’s still possible to die from an overdose.
I just wanted to give it a try. I want to prepare a proper suicide attempt, but I just feel so suicidal and I just want to die now.
Sorry that you feel this way. Is there something that could distract you for the while?
Don’t worry, I have been feeling like this for 6 months now. And that’s not even that long compared to some other people.
And no, not really. I used to distract myself a lot, but nothing seems to work nowadays.
It’s pretty funny cuz my life is actually better than it has been in the last 6 months. But yet I feel more depressed than ever..
Oh good that your life got better than it used to be. Sometimes I’ve been depressed for no reason at all, I would not know why i’m stressed and be mad at myself. Is this something of that sort or you have an actual reason ‘why’? Would it help you if you could talk about it to someone you trust?
Well, I would suggest you to read my first post if you want to know why I am like this.
But if you don’t want to then let’s say that I just really hate myself a lot. That’s why I am like this.
I can talk to people, but that doesn’t help either.
I just read your earlier posts. I’m so sorry that you’ve been going through so much at this young age. I am nothing to help you out. I just feel that you don’t have a person around you that could relate to what you’re going through and share. I have a lot of friends that have no idea how I’m dying everyday cause they can’t relate to any of what I went through. It is tough I can understand. I have no big time advice to bore you with but if you want to talk to someone or bore someone with your rants I would be glad to listen to them and not call it fake like your “fucking retarded fuck face” friend.
Thank you for reading my earlier posts!
Yeah,it’s kinda true that I don’t really have anyone that can relate to me.
I’m sorry that your friends are also like that..
Lol, sorry I don’t really have something to rant about, or at least not right now.
What pills did you OD with? Im seeing a lot of failures with otc meds.
I don’t even know what I took.
All I know is that I took quite a lot of them.
But to tell the truth, I didn’t plan this overdose suicide attempt. I just felt like I had to kill myself, and that’s why I just took a bunch of pills all at once.