I think I enjoyed It?

I don’t know if “enjoy” is the right word to use. I kind of felt at peace but not really at the same time. I don’t know but a part of me kind of enjoyed fainting. It felt like I had died. And it felt like I was suddenly non existent. All the fears and anxieties were gone for what felt like a short second. I then saw a bright white flash like someone just hit reset on the Nintendo. I woke up on the floor in an awkward position. In those short waking moments  it felt like I was lost. I didn’t really know who I was or where I was for that matter. It slowly came back to me but I still felt weak. I felt cold but I started feeling life flow back into me as someone gave me water. At this point I felt half dead. I’m not suicidal but I wouldn’t mind experincing this again. My mind totally went blank. It honestly felt like I was non existent. There’s a part of me that wishes I had stayed like this. Although I must say it’s nice to be back. I value my life more when I experience things like this.