Countless amount of reasons and problems I’m just sick of dealing with day in and day out that hurts me emotionally and physically.. if you take a look at some of my stories you may get an idea.. my life is just mind blogging to point I actually do what to commit.. I attempted last night.. it took about 4 different try’s to get to the flashing lights stage.. then I stop.. I knew if I kept going it would of ended but like I’ve mentioned it’s not easy taking your own life especially the way I was trying to go out… I’ll explain it to you like this with out talking about methods.. I couldn’t breath..
Yeah, that sounds like one of the worst ways to go out. I’m going to read some of your other stuff, as I’m curious. I’m sorry you’re struggling, I do understand (in my own fucked up way)
I feel ready deep down in my heart but it’s fighting that human natural instinct to live in that timely painful matter through the process… I have to push through a scary in dormant to die… I’m not going to give up though..I can’t afford too.. if I don’t.. my pain will keep revolving..
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What makes you feel that way? Anything specific, or is it just how you feel?
Countless amount of reasons and problems I’m just sick of dealing with day in and day out that hurts me emotionally and physically.. if you take a look at some of my stories you may get an idea.. my life is just mind blogging to point I actually do what to commit.. I attempted last night.. it took about 4 different try’s to get to the flashing lights stage.. then I stop.. I knew if I kept going it would of ended but like I’ve mentioned it’s not easy taking your own life especially the way I was trying to go out… I’ll explain it to you like this with out talking about methods.. I couldn’t breath..
Yeah, that sounds like one of the worst ways to go out. I’m going to read some of your other stuff, as I’m curious. I’m sorry you’re struggling, I do understand (in my own fucked up way)
You have no idea.. I got so pissed that I couldn’t do it the first 3 times that the 4th attempt I managed to see flashing lights
Yeah, I wouldn’t want to do it in that way if I were to do it.
Maybe it means you’re not ready? Maybe there is more for you here. I know the pain part sucks.
I feel ready deep down in my heart but it’s fighting that human natural instinct to live in that timely painful matter through the process… I have to push through a scary in dormant to die… I’m not going to give up though..I can’t afford too.. if I don’t.. my pain will keep revolving..
What if it didn’t? What if you found something that made you feel balanced/fulfilled?
I hope you find what you’re looking for either way. The choice is yours
living to find out isn’t worth it to me.. I don’t deserve a life of happiness