I’m tired of my life.

If you know any drugs that can kill painlessly and quickly I would be grateful for the information.

I’m almost 20 myself. I am in love with the idea of woman I know, but I don’t know whether it’s true because she has ignored me for two years and I think the only way to make sure is to know her properly, so I’m stuck with this thing in my head and want to die. Sometimes when I think of her I think of the fear that she is with or will be with someone else one day and have children. I live in the fear, my friend, you have already witnessed it, your pain will go being to slowly go away, mine is not going to be solved unless I know her or my mind gets rid of all the admiration of goodness I have for this woman, and I’m guessing that this is what is going on.