Hmm… Just signed up. Not sure where to start. I had made myself a deal a few years ago. I decided that it really is kind of my duty (no ‘kind of’ involved, if I’m being honest) to outlive my mother and my dog. Feel like I owe it to my mother. Just couldn’t do it to my dog who is everything to me. I am also everything to her and I just couldn’t leave her adrift like that. I still plan on keeping that promise. But, I gotta say, the world in general and this country (usa) in particular these days is making this promise more and more difficult to keep.
My own personal lifetime of woe seems particularly meaningless in the face of the shit that’s fixing to go down in this country. I shouldn’t say ‘fixing’, cuz this shit has been happening all along. But it just seems to have gotten too big to try and hide anymore. I dunno.
I am irrelevant. The people who run this shit couldn’t give less of a fuck about me or anybody I know. They don’t give a shit about 99% of us, for fuck’s sake. When I do decide to get this over with, the only reason it might matter to the government is if they catch me and are able to monetize me by tossing me in jail. I dunno.
I’ll be honest, I Googled this shit to try and get some practical advice. I know that’s a no-no here, so I’ll leave that be. I guess I offer that by way of explaining this rambling, incoherent post. But, since I started in on government, I may as well state my issue with them with respect to suicide.
We sure are eager to drag any other country on the globe up to our current standard of what’s acceptable. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think women should have to live in bags. I certainly don’t condone throwing homosexuals off of rooftops.
I guess it’s not so much the dragging of others forward (although they’re is an argument there, I spose), it’s our refusal to drag ourselves forward that chaps my hide.
I saw some piece on vice a few years ago about some Scandinavian country (sorry I can’t be more specific) where assisted suicide is legal, not just for terminal physical illnesses, but also for mental illnesses like depression. Now there is some progress I can get behind. But we all know that something like that will never be allowed in this country. And that is bullshit.
I would trade all of the useless medication I’ve been prescribed, all of the useless therapy I’ve wasted my time with, for the comfort of knowing that when the time comes that I’m DONE here, there was a place I could go to take care of it. It’d be nice to not have to figure shit or myself and very probably fuck something up. It’d be nice to be able to go somewhere calm and relaxing and have a medical professional who knows what the fuck they are doing help me make that transition.
But that’ll never happen in this fucked up country. The same people who are so concerned about a fetus but who could give two shits about a child once it’s born, would never allow it. So we will continue to hide in the shadows, saddled with all of their guilt and shame. Such bullshit.
god bless america, indeed.
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You made your case very well. It would be so civilized if this country’s law makers would give us right to die laws. Seems like a fundamental right to me. Dignitas is trying to do just that as I understand it.
Until we have right to die laws I cannot see us as a free people. Too bad I have to plan to use violence on myself (to prevent failure) and spring it on loved ones (or they will block it) when I am done with life.