just a quick thank you, thanks for reading my rants when I’m having a bad day, thanks for your inputs on my nonsense life, thanks for your compliments when I post pictures, even tho I still disagree with them. thanks for helping me stick around a bit longer. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to keep on in this life but until the day I get the courage to end my pain it’s nice to have people who understand. I love you all on sp and you’ve all been nothing but kind to me and helped me more than some of the people I’m around irl. I think it’s because here I don’t have to hide behind a fake smile or pretend I’m ok, cause I am definitely not ok. And it’s comforting to have a place I can come and just let all out.
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So true, on here I am free to take off the mask I wear in public. The fake smile to pretend I’m doing just fine when really I’m planning on ending it shortly. I find the people on here understand each other way more then in real life. Every day is a bad day for me.
You’re welcome, Autumn.
Everyone’s life is nonsense, ultimately. Just different kinds of nonsense. You don’t get to see it in another’s life … it’s hidden away from the cameras. So, from your limited perspective, it seems like your suffering is unique. I assure you it isn’t. That doesn’t make you feel any better, I know.
And I maintain what I say in response to your pics 😉
Very true, from our limited perspective to us it always seems like were the only ones with our problems. Little do we realize how many other people suffer with them as well.
You are so welcome wanted85. I read all your posts, don’t know what to say to most of them so I don’t, yet I certainly feel for you as things seem almost hopeless.
I don’t post much as I am almost never quite sure what to say, but I have commented in the past. I however, do look for your posts to see what you have to say and how you are doing. So, you are welcome and thank you for sharing your struggles. Most of us can at least relate to something that is happening in others lives.
We haven’t spoken much, when it comes to commenting I usually feel like someone’s already said it best and keep my mouth (fingers) shut. I think we joined/started posting around the same time and a post of yours was one of the first I read. Since then when I see your name pop up I make sure to read it, even if I’ve got nothing helpful to say.
In a way I hope you don’t find the courage to end the pain, but whatever ‘strength/courage’ it takes for you to carry on through it. You seem like a strong person. That doesn’t make it easy, because the strong are often expected to fight the most and smile through it too. That fake smile gets tiring so I’m glad everyone here gets a brief rest from it and every now and then a real smile slips through amongst all the suffering.
Sorry for the ramble, guess I’m trying to say thank you too Wanted and hopefully one day you won’t have to fake that smile, from the photos you’ve shared it’s lovely, it’d be a shame to see it go! 🙂