I have made the heartbreaking decision to give up on life ..oh actually it’s not heartbreaking.. it jst feels good to know this pain will be over this time next week..getting excited about suicide, now that’s sick but it actually so nice to know that for once I cn finish what I started. Iv read some interesting stories on this website nd Iv gotta say some of you guys are mentally strong and I wish you all the best in whatever you choose to do.
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I’m happy that you’ll finally be at peace. How are you planning to go out?
Using an hemp rope .hanging ..it could be painful but it’ll be the last pain I’ll ever feel
Have you decided whether to use partial or full suspension yet? From what I’ve learnt it seems better to have the knot high and in front rather than behind. In this way the windpipe isn’t compressed which should reduce the pain for you. With most of your weight only compressing the sides of the neck you would pass out fairly quickly, but then the probability of thrashing about after blackout must also be planned for to ensure you don’t dislodge yourself while unconscious.
@epilogue thanks for the for the advice. From my research I’ll be using the full suspension and i was thinking the noose at the back from the videos iv seen..really appreciate ur comment ..your doing a good job at living compared to me..knowing I’ll be gone this time next week actually gives me the peace Iv been searching for ..isnt that crazy??
Whether you choose to stay or choose to go, I don’t judge you. I pray you find the peace or freedom you seek.
Thank you sweetquietus
I thought of doing that from the bridge. You know I won’t think any less of you if you change your mind, right?
Changing my mind at this point is not an option you see..iv been to different doctors and psychiatrists assessments nd Iv been told I’m not suffering from mental illness hence why they let me go home.. the truth is I know that myself and basically what’s is wrong is that the one person I truely want the most in this world as made me worthless….it’s just an emotional thing I cnt seem to get rid off even I though Iv tried…planning my own suicide and constantly thinkn about death seems to be the only happiness I have now..I jst really feel sorry for my family because it’ll be hard for them and considering I’ll be doing it in a different country aswell ..
If you’re putting the noose at the back it might be an idea to tie a solid knot at the front so that when you put your weight on the rope it won’t tighten down around your trachea. If you’ve decided on full suspension then involuntary kicking should be less of a problem, as long as the suspension point and rope are strong enough to handle it. When the pain and sadness become too much this is probably the method I’ll use too.
It feels awful talking about things like this doesn’t it? I, like most others on here obviously don’t want you to take your own life but then we’d be hypocrites if we tried to talk you out of it. It’s a paradoxical situation.