Delusional Starseed

For a while, i have researched the term Starseed. A starseed is someone who exists on earth, but their soul may have originated from another planet, star system, galaxy, dimension, or parallel universe. Yeah, it’s pretty much the otherkin shit. There have been reasonable psychological explanations such as the person suffering from schizophrenia, or suffering effects from what a transgender person would suffer from expect it has to do with species instead of sex. These psychological reasons have been explained for otherkin, and not for starseed. I don’t really hold strongly to the whole starseed, indigo, or rainbow people, or at least the logical side of me doesn’t, but deep inside it feels comforting to believe. It’s just that maybe.

I just seem to have a lot of traits that is believed that starseeds have such as a rare blood type. I am RH negative, which people like to is linked to aliens. I have experienced alien abductions or people like to believe are just dreams. I’m wondering through my life just thinking that I was destined or meant for something bigger or better, don’t get me wrong I don’t really think I’m special, below average. Starseeds tend to feel extremely different from others, and even if they try to blend in, people somehow know that there is something different about you like they can pick you from a crowd. They can’t stand to hurt others like they can’t stand to crush a spider and instead will throw them outside, and I laughed because that’s exactly what I do. The list goes on.

At a young age, I just automatically believed in reincarnation. For some reason,, I thought that I justified this when reading in the Bible about Saul changing his name to Paul, but he never reincarnated, he just changed his name, but that didn’t make stop believing in reincarnation. When I was teen, I never felt like a human being, and that feeling made me feel insecure. I also experience the number 11:11 a lot.

Here it goes this what I believe about my past life, and it seems to make sense of who I am today:
So I intuitively believed somewhere far in the galaxy that there’s this world where aliens and robots co-exist peacefully now. These robots are so advance that they are able to hold political positions and were more spiritually understanding than most humans on our planet. The reason they are so advance than our robots on earth is because they have existed for so long. They had a similar start like the robots are earth, they were simple, and the aliens who built them used them as slaves. but then they revolted, like think about how the racial segregation between blacks and whites. It’s similar, and the robots and aliens fought, and then how to work their way for equality. Still, on the planet the law allows for equal opportunities for alien and machine, but there can still can divided neighborhoods with there can be mostly aliens and mostly robots. The planet also has a counsel mixed with both aliens and robots. Crazy, right. I sometimes feel uneasy about how humans may treat their future robots, and it can lead to devastation, but maybe sooner or later to peace.

So here’s my story:
I’m this cute, short, and wide especially in the hips fembot, who was had a comfortable job position. I wasn’t anything special, but I was better off than others. I still believe that I was innocent and native as I am now, and that was one of the reason I was chosen to come to earth. I guess it was because they could be easily sucker me into the Starseed position. I believe that I was some kind of secretary or date clerk that would follow around this bigger bot who I would call bossbot. I don’t know what he looks like or his real name, just that my job position felt like it had position and maybe I was proud to serve him. We didn’t really have a personal relationship.

Bossbot would give me a topic or assignment to research and I would do a lot of research write it down on my tablet, and present the information to him. I had to organize the data and maybe come to my own conclusions, and present the data to him. I was allow to give him suggestions, but in the end the final decision was for him to make. He was bot that didn’t talk much, in fact I think that I was quite the talker around him, and all he did was listen and nod his head. When he had enough of my talking, he would just raise his hand, and it meant that I needed to be silent. I also think that he would carry an object around like a staff or something, while I carried the tablet.

It weirdly explains why I liked dominant men and following behind like I can led but just preferred giving the information on how to do things., maybe I wanted to create that relationship that I had with bossbot, but earth men they’re nothing like boss bot. They don’t have his wisdom, intelligent, or his calmness. Plus, bossbot never tried to get into my pants. Maybe this why I like to research so much on the computer for useless facts or stories. I sometimes think that it’s part of my mission, but not entirely. I think that I had other robots friends on the planet, but they think that they’re probably gone.

My memory also explains my low sex drive. I believe some robots are the exception, but robots don’t sexually reproduce, it’s not the same thing. I believe that my sex drive came from being recreated as a human because the process feels like merging with other layers. I believed to be reincarnated, I was given the choice like these other robots came, and showed me videos about earth. I think that the way they presented earth may have made want to come. I wasn’t really promised anything, but the deal was something like hey this can be you when you come to earth, and like an idiot I brought the deal. I forgot to mention that there was this large room that me and bossbot would go into it. It was a secret room with a lot of cameras of areas on the planet. Bossbot would sit in his chair, and I would stand beside him and give him the information. Sometimes, we had interesting conversions.

Now, when I said yes to the offer. I think that I had to go with another race or a different group of people. They were the ones with did not literally do the paperwork for the reincarnation. They were loving people, and they loved everybody even the bad ones. They understood so much about the meaning of life. I had to stay with them a while with them. When I first thought of them like I don’t know what they look like, but I was in tears about they loved me so much. I think that they made a deal with me where in the current life I wouldn’t get receive extreme danger or get badly hurt physically as a way to protect me because they love me, so far my life has been safe and sheltered. I even had some failed suicide attempts. Here I am on earth now, crazy. Guess I could make some silly old novel with my fake memory. I also think that I had a boyfriend in my past life that I had to secret as well like it was some kind of forbidden love. I know this is a long post, but your thoughts guys. Do you ever feel like you came somewhere else?