Believe it or not my very first post here was in 2012. Lost, depressed and thinking of suicide i was told then ‘it gets better’, and to ‘just tough it out’.
Well almost 5 years later no longer a child, i have a degree, i fought so hard to stay here and to achieve something worth while… Why do i still feel like a failure?
I once was told the comparison of the ‘big black dog’ and depression, and how once it finds you it will never leave you. Its been over 5 years and the most i could manage was to forget about the dog it for the shortest of times but like always, its back. Im tired of feeling like this, is this even worth it if all i can hope for is to forget for a while never able to feel ‘normal’ again?
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I guess you figured it out, it doesn’t get better. When I hear people saying those words I brush it off like when someone says “good morning”. No one means it. What s funny is when people say “you’re only xx years old, you don’t have problems, wait til you’re my age”. Meaning: it gets worse? Nice pep talk… Well it sounds like you have it a good try at least
Yep, it does get worse when you get older. When you get older, your body starts to go, starts with little aches and pains, and progresses to more crap. So your depression gets worse, because now you have other problems. It’s hard not to be negative, but life suxxors.
Oh, it does get better for some people, including some people who couldn’t believe it would ever get better. Then sometimes it gets worse again. Or sometimes it gets better without actually getting good–severe suffering turns into mild unhappiness. The truth is that you just can’t predict the future. It always MIGHT get better, and it might not.
My experience is that it does get better, for a while. Then crap happens and I go downhill. However, I do not stay here for a long period as things start to get better for a while only to go downhill again. It never stays bad or good. For me it is cyclic. I hope this helps.
It is a cyclic thing. I believe for some people pain never goes away. Sometimes it gets better but never desapears. Some of us are more sensitive and cant get rid of the misery. Others have to much issues, traumas, hyistory of abuse etc… Its hard to just get over of this kind of thing. But, yes, I think it can get better, maybe not perfect, but better. I wish you the best.