It doesn’t help me do anything, except harm myself.
3 days ago • General
Apr 20, 2017 @ 22:48:50
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Apr 20, 2017 @ 22:58:29
It’s something I realized just a bit ago
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:04:39
Made me think of this quote. “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned”
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:25:01
Unless you enjoy holding on to the hot coal
Sometimes things are out of your control, seemingly. I think I make excuses to be honest
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:31:05
Well yea some people like pain, or feel they deserve pain. There is power in hatred, it does give you energy that you can feed off of even as it burns you up.
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:36:23
Have you ever felt anger to the point that laughter bubbles up from deep inside?
Sadness/guilt/shame/pain causes me to burrow, anger and mania make me reach out. Neither version is easy to be around. People determine I’m weird right away. “Things aren’t right”.!
I can’t be what anyone wants, I can’t even be what I want
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:42:17
No i don’t think i have ever laughed from being too angry.
Well if you can’t be what you want or what other people want. I guess the only thing to do is figure out what you are and find some way to accept that. Then work on moving towards what you want to be.
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:45:23
So what? something?
You’ve never felt so mad that you laughed hysterically? Just felt like your fucking mind split in two? Like you don’t know how to feel about anything, so either you feel it all or nothing?
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:51:15
Haha no i don’t recall laughing hysterically. Although i do have extreme anger issues, it just has never manifested as that. For me anger is just anger like you get so angry that there isn’t room to feel anything else. The anger just burns anything else away. You could pretty much do anything and not care.
Apr 20, 2017 @ 23:54:51
Yep. I’ve done some strangeness in weird states. It’s not just anger. Different things made me weird. I don’t do enough to fix it
Apr 21, 2017 @ 01:12:55
Anger has it’s uses… Like sometimes I’ll get sooo ticked that I go clean dishes, or work on the lawn. The ultimate level is cleaning the bathroom/shower and cleaning the catbox. Holding onto anger until it burns you down…. yeah… that’s a deadly path. I just… had to learn about anger a long time ago. It was dangerous, and in some ways frightening. I remember a few times I got black out angry. For years no one wanted to come near me, and I just had a health problem. Even now, I cope with my silent intimidation issues and people flinching from me just being viciously sarcastic.
Apr 21, 2017 @ 01:50:48
Holding onto anger until it burns you down. . . I’d have to say that’s me. I’ve danced my way around it over the years, but most (all??) of my issues tie back to anger. Repressed anger. It’s like going 15 rounds with the champ, being worn down round by round, then, it comes in for the kill. Yeah. Sounds familiar.
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