Depression, you win. Seriously, you win.
Sigh I really am a loser , aren’t I? I mean it has only been 8 months since I became depressed and I’ve already given up. There are people out there that have been living with depression, suicidal thoughts,.. for years and years, and here I am, giving up after 8 months.
I really hate myself.
But that doesn’t matter anymore, because I give up. I give up on my crush (basically the only thing that I had still hope for), I give up on school, on eating, cleaning my room,… Lol so basically, I give up on life. I guess I’ll try doing suicide 1 more time, and if I fuck it up this time, then I’ll just give up on that too. But I’ve already failed 3 times, so I doubt that I’ll succeed this time.
Pfft
I just want to go back to bed, sadly enough I can’t.
It kinda feels good to give up, you know? I don’t know why, but I have this feeling of relieve.
God dammit, I just want to disappear from this world.
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Have you told anyone around you that you’re struggling?
Yeah, quite some people know about all this.
I’ve also tried to get help, but they’re too busy, so there is a really long waiting list.
I’m not too busy… If you want to vent or whatever
Thanks for the offer, but I don’t really have the motivation and energy for that. lol
Ok… Choice is yours.
Many here would be willing to listen if you do ever feel an urge.
I’m sorry that shit sucks
I know, and I really appreciate the offer. I just don’t have the energy to do things like this. Heck I don’t even have the energy to eat breakfast.
I understand… I go through spans of time with 0 energy, as well as times with too much energy and during those times I tend to act like a crazy person .
It’s been a bit better since starting a medication, I’m still tired a lot of times and it takes a bit to get going, but I can do things. As for my crazy times, I still have those.
I hope something changes for you.
Haha I used to have my crazy moments too.
I don’t have them anymore tho.
I’m happy that things have been a little bit better for you lately.
I hope that you’ll one day live a good and happy life!
Thanks for saying that… I hope the same for you.