Life was going well. I was coping. Yes there are still weeks where it’s hard and the depression and anxiety completely takes over but I was handling it. But now I’m not.
Most days I am anxious and depressed for no particular reason. But now my mind won’t switch off and it’s making everything ten times worse and I don’t want to leave the house, I don’t want to see my family for Easter. I just want to dissapear.
I am a loyal person. I drove 3 hours after uni/work all day just for a friends birthday. On my birthday she didn’t even bother to show up because she was too tired, despite the fact that she had to drive past my house to get home. My other friends hang out without me and don’t invite me because I may be busy. Despite the fact that they know I would reschedule anything for them. I just feel like I am constantly running around after everyone and no one would even consider doing the same for me.
My best friend started dating my other best friend. I have been alone all the time. Then my best friend told me on the weekend that he thought he has feelings for me and kissed me. But now I have barely heard from him sense. And I just feel worse and worse.
People are selfish, unloving and cold. No one cares anymore. So why should I care for them.