I don’t want to be here. How did I end up here. I wake up every morning in pain, that I ended up here in this predicament. Why did you do this to me? I asked “God” to please don’t hurt me anymore. I have no way of surviving as in severe depression. I have such a hard, hard time even leaving the apartment. I can see the sky is blue today, I see the Cascades out my window. But I can’t move or go anywhere, completely paralyzed. So scared that I won’t make it , knowing deeply that I won’t make it. I thought he was good, not selfish, and that he would never hurt me. I didn’t know he was going to turn my life upside down and strand me here. I am not strong to get through this, I am not. I just want to be back where no one can ever hurt me.
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That is how I was feeling today, so close to put an end to feeling hurt and even left school in middle of my class. My life sucks! Anyway I´m sorry you have a rough time
Me too. I hope you can pull through too..
I feel you. I went to work yesterday and luckily my manager understands how severe depression is. She comes to work and finds me sobbing and she sent me home. I simply told her this is one of those days I can’t. She was like it’s okay go home, watch something funny, and I hope you feel better.
And as I sit here typing this through tears because I’m having one of those painful days too I hope we can pull through this.
I’m sorry, I know it’s awful. I hope you can pull through this too. It’s so hard. I haven’t left my apartment during the day in over a month in exception for last Friday. I completely paralyzed. I cry all the time, afraid.