I can’t escape the situation I’m in where I’m stuck with some shit up relatives who I can’t cope with. Sick of hearing their bossy-shit-who-thinks-they’re-perfect voices. I can’t keep bottling everything up inside me. I think I may just snap and kill them unconsciously. But my suicidal tendencies are stronger. Only thing stopping me from doing it is the lack of how to. I could just stab myself or just jump from our not so high rooftop but a part of me keeps telling that if I survive that shit I’ll be even in deeper shit. Tried to find a suicide group so that I can get access to something like a gun or poison but to no avail. The thought of jumping on the rooftop is pretty much all I can think right now. My body is urging me to. I want to kill myself now so that it can all finally end. And yes I thought of what would happen after I die, all will be better. Might even teach those assholes a lesson or two
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That voice telling you that you may not die if you stab yourself or jump is the part of your brain telling you to live. Time passes. Can you find a way to get away from them, even if for only a few hours a day? school? library? work? friends house? Confide in someone what your feeling and let them help you. Best way to get payback on relatives like that, be a success in life and hire them to clean your boathouse nd cabin on the lake 🙂 Good luck
@scottflorida I can’t escape from this hell hole. These relatives are who are raising me because my parents can’t raise their own children. Its like everything I do is wrong. The thing is, I over time this feeling lessens but the thought persists. The thought of either killing them or killing myself. I’m afraid I might snap at any moment once they trigger me and I wish they don’t. Tried talking to a counselor once but I can’t convey my feelings verbally properly.