I thought I was doing better. Today I could walk upright under a snake and have clearance, I feel that low! Do not know how I continue to keep going on? There is a hole in me that seems to not have a bottom. Have been told many a time, that I am one of the good ones, the proverbial nice guy. No matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to fill that hole, and it’s tearing me apart! The pills and firearms at my disposal, are calling my name. I have fought the battle with this sickness for over 30 years. I may finally be loosing the war….
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Hey, has it always been this bad for those 30 years, or have there been some OK times? Do you think that you might have done some things that have helped other people over that time? Made their lives a little better?
Not all of them. The 30 started in my late teens. Have always struggled with self esteem. I imagine that most of us have done something positive at some point.
Hold on my bro. What would you like? What can be done? Give more details if you’d like
I get that this feels like a losing proposition, right now.
My thoughts regarding suicide is that it should never be entered lightly or in a fit of desperation. Why don’t you take the bullets (or firing pin? I don’t know much about guns) and drop freeze them/it in a block of water. It’ll be there if you need, but you’ll have all that “thaw time” to figure out if this is what you want.
Talk to us.
If/when I chose to punch my ticket (so to speak) it will not be a hasty decision. I have spent quite a bit of time thinking about both sides of the coin.
I wanted to say open up, release your feelings
Opening up is definitely not one of my strong points. Not a good thing, I know…
dude im 40 and had problems my whole life, i had a wife for 19yrs and we broke up and she went with a felon and abandon me and my 2 boys, we are doing good now without her now.
please keep the hate! it really helps, also stock up the end is near!
if you ever need anything message me.
I am in my late 40’s, and have a little in common with your situation. It isn’t an easy thing to deal with. That, and the bumps in the road that keep coming, sure make it difficult.