Death By Thorns

People just don’t understand what goes on in my life. They just don’t understand how hard it is for me to accomplish simple tasks only because of my depression. My parents don’t know where I keep my blade clearly….Every time I go to get into the shower I break down. The people that go where I go, they don’t understand that I hide every little bit of my pain behind a fake smile. They don’t know when I say I’m great I’m really not. They don’t understand that I feel like shit everyday only because of my suicidal thoughts and depression anger that runs through my head every single day…I cry myself to sleep every night because of depression. I feel as it has ruined me. At the beginning of this year I almost committed suicide. To be honest, I’ve been thinking about doing it since all the shit that goes on around me and my life. Maybe that’s why I keep my head down all the time. Maybe that’s why I’m so quiet. Maybe that’s why I suffer from severe depression, being suicidal, have an eating disorder, have anxiety attacks, and also why nobody cares about me as a person. I cry when I get too angry. I say sorry for apologizing too much. I’m sorry I was ever in your life.