No job means you don’t have to slave away to the wicked system.
No car and no insurance means you don’t have to piss away your money, there other routes to get around town. For crying aloud, you have legs, LEGS!
No friends means that you don’t shitty people in your life, who’s going to be around you because you got something, then when you don’t, they’re gone. Pssst, friends are a waste of time.
Trust me, these things aren’t worth having. There are people who do have these things and they’re not happy, and if you did have them, society still won’t accept you. Don’t play the game. Don’t play the game.
Your time spent typing those words are greatly appreciated. You have given me more advice and kind words then any one around me. I will say to a family member I am going to kill myself and it will be brushed away and followed up with “you really gotta start paying me back all that money”
You are intelligent. Your words ring true. All I hear is reach out to someone people care, and here I am in fear of reaching out because there very well may be backlash in some way shape or form. Maybe this is our purpose, to be outcasts. Someone has to do it.
Death is scary. I’ve always said before you kill yourself you have to try to make things right, at least. I’ve borrowed money for school that I can’t pay back, I’ve had countless jobs none of which give any satisfaction what so ever. Bad credit, poor family, no skills. I HAVE tried on numerous occasions foe the last 10 years, happiness eludes me. Hate and anger are my comfort zone
Does nobody think suicide is an option? Cuz it’s always been on the table for me. Never have I been on blogs or social media to post the things that go on in my head. This is the first. No one knows how is feel or what I’m capable of. If I had insurance I’d be doing whatever I could to get help. I’m in no mans land. Some people just kill themselves, for reasons only they can understand.
I’m in a similar situation and although I may have a car but I have shit credit, NO friends, no girlfriend, no job and no achievements. I hate it, it takes so much energy to keep my head up when I go out that just talking to someone makes me feel suicidal. I normally just lie and tell them what a good life I have but it’s pointless because I have nothing to back it up with but lies. Plus, I won’t be able to get a girlfriend because not only do you need money but you also need confidence which I have none of. I feel you man, it’s so hard to keep going, to keep pushing, even though everything in your body is telling you to quit those stupid survival instincts keep you at bay (at least for a while).
You are in my thoughts friend. One day something will pop up and change everything for us. We just have to try to make it til then and we must not throw it all away after we rise from obscurity. Like I have done on a thousand different occasions
I wish I had gotten a ged instead of wasting 4 yrs in highschool. What a freaking waste of time.. I could have had an established life by now by starting college earlier.
My life is over too. 22 and am starting in a career I loath. I feel trapped. I also feel like a man-child for many reasons, mostly one traumatic thing that screwed my head up.
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No job means you don’t have to slave away to the wicked system.
No car and no insurance means you don’t have to piss away your money, there other routes to get around town. For crying aloud, you have legs, LEGS!
No friends means that you don’t shitty people in your life, who’s going to be around you because you got something, then when you don’t, they’re gone. Pssst, friends are a waste of time.
Trust me, these things aren’t worth having. There are people who do have these things and they’re not happy, and if you did have them, society still won’t accept you. Don’t play the game. Don’t play the game.
Your time spent typing those words are greatly appreciated. You have given me more advice and kind words then any one around me. I will say to a family member I am going to kill myself and it will be brushed away and followed up with “you really gotta start paying me back all that money”
Ha ha ha, I would tell them never.
This is what I would like to call double standards. You gotta get use to them.
When someone up the ladder feels sad, everyone caters to his or her need.
When you sad, no one cares.
It’s the darn truth.
Whatever reason, it sounds like it is your destiny to be the outcast, just mine is. Going to write about the benefits of being an outcast.
I remember when I was going to a university.
When someone else goes, it’s all like go for it you got talent.
When I did it, it get things like you better off with just an associate’s degree, or shows you how much a college degree is worth.
Seriously, fuck the human race. Sometimes I wish I voted for Hilary Clinton, so we could get this WW3 started already, and end the human race.
You are intelligent. Your words ring true. All I hear is reach out to someone people care, and here I am in fear of reaching out because there very well may be backlash in some way shape or form. Maybe this is our purpose, to be outcasts. Someone has to do it.
Well hello there, friend of nearly identical circumstances…
I know how hard a life like that can be.
Death is scary. I’ve always said before you kill yourself you have to try to make things right, at least. I’ve borrowed money for school that I can’t pay back, I’ve had countless jobs none of which give any satisfaction what so ever. Bad credit, poor family, no skills. I HAVE tried on numerous occasions foe the last 10 years, happiness eludes me. Hate and anger are my comfort zone
Does nobody think suicide is an option? Cuz it’s always been on the table for me. Never have I been on blogs or social media to post the things that go on in my head. This is the first. No one knows how is feel or what I’m capable of. If I had insurance I’d be doing whatever I could to get help. I’m in no mans land. Some people just kill themselves, for reasons only they can understand.
I’m in a similar situation and although I may have a car but I have shit credit, NO friends, no girlfriend, no job and no achievements. I hate it, it takes so much energy to keep my head up when I go out that just talking to someone makes me feel suicidal. I normally just lie and tell them what a good life I have but it’s pointless because I have nothing to back it up with but lies. Plus, I won’t be able to get a girlfriend because not only do you need money but you also need confidence which I have none of. I feel you man, it’s so hard to keep going, to keep pushing, even though everything in your body is telling you to quit those stupid survival instincts keep you at bay (at least for a while).
You are in my thoughts friend. One day something will pop up and change everything for us. We just have to try to make it til then and we must not throw it all away after we rise from obscurity. Like I have done on a thousand different occasions
You have all settled my mind for the time being im thankful for you all
I wish I had gotten a ged instead of wasting 4 yrs in highschool. What a freaking waste of time.. I could have had an established life by now by starting college earlier.
My life is over too. 22 and am starting in a career I loath. I feel trapped. I also feel like a man-child for many reasons, mostly one traumatic thing that screwed my head up.