I got my closure. The one life link I had to people has been cut. She had her outlets besides me and I realized she just didn’t have the time or care to contact me of her own free will. Which is fine. People do and need different things. Amazing how that just shed right off of me. Now I’m back to being alone. And I’m strangely happy. Always wondering if she would ever check up on me to see how I’m doing was stressful. Truth is she never really cared enough to seek me out. Which is an oddly liberating feeling. Like a tight jacket just got removed and now I have breathing room. I truly have no reason to stick around anymore. I’m free of the need for connection. Absolute freedom. Such an amazing feeling. She described it as no strings attached. Neither of us really cared about each other. Or at least I realized it was one sided. I bet you money I’ll be feeling different later. A whole thousand smacks. This whole experience taught me that those sort of relationships where people depend on each other, just ain’t worth it. There is no person out there that will actually depend on me the way I would depend on them. They are free of that sort of thing because they have others to look towards. I’m free because I need no one. Crazy really. When I told her that I didn’t want to have those little chats of ours, she held no resistance. That’s because she doesn’t need me. If the roles were reversed I’d feel miserable because my only life link would be severed. But I did this of my own accord. What a peculiar set of circumstances. It’s all done and said. Bet you no one out there will argue. No one cares enough to. Absolutely crazy. This whole time I was so scared and lonely and now when reality hits it just makes everything so clear. Like a deep breath that fills the lungs. I can suffer and suffer and suffer and no one will care. The fact that no one is watching just makes it easier though. In a rather bizarre way. I’ll drive down the highway with nothing following me now. What a feeling.