I’ve been contemplating suicide for so long. I’ve talked to friends about it, I’ve tried to go get professional help but I ran out of money. Now I feel like I have no other options but to go through with it. I constantly feel like crying. Every day is a struggle. I can’t see past day to day. I only think of the right now. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know what I would do if I don’t kill myself. I feel like I would only be staying alive to take care of everyone else. I’ve been taking care of everyone else but no one is taking care of me.
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What are you passionate about? What excites you?
What do you think would make you happy and why?
@ReachingForTheStars helpful & well-thought of questions, thank you 🙂
Right now I don’t know what makes me happy. It’s like I can’t even see happiness right now. I used to love reading, but now I can’t even make it to page 2 in a book. I feel like everything I want to do would be self-medicating and unhealthy. One of the things I love to do is eat, but I now see myself gaining weight (I never thought it would happen to me.) and I’m too short to have excess weight on me. I also have back problems so food is a total no-no. Also, once I’m full, I’m still sad. I’m only happy when I SEE the food.
@kakapretty9
Hey there
First of all: welcome to the site
Second of all: big big big hug
🙂
Third of all:
I wanna help you
any way I can
I’m not a psychiatrist / psychologist / psychotherapist / any of these other words that all start with either “psychi” or “psycho”
😀
I took only one psychology course back at uni & that was years ago
so I can’t really call it “professional”
but it’s “help” & i’m offering it for free
I’m willing to take ur hand
& try my out most best
to help you get out of that sad & dark place
u feel u’r in
I only need you to give me a chance…
Could we try?
How would that work?
Good question…
To tell you the truth…
At this point, I’m not really sure myself
I don’t know what would work or not work
I don’t even know
if anything that I currently have in mind to say to you
would work
but I’m positive
that there IS “something”
that WILL work
some kind of “solution”
to your problems
I just can’t see it yet
because we are still at the very beginning of that road / journey
I still know nothing about you
or what you’re going through
If we can talk about what’s troubling you
& how this all started…
I’m sure that gradually we’ll be able to see practical ways that would work
can we try?
I have no problem with trying.
Hey once more,
I just came back from replying to ur other post
& I hadn’t seen this comment till right now
I’m really happy you wrote that sentence 🙂
Okay… can you brief me in on what’s happening?
what’s going on? what are the problems you’r facing?
&, if I may ask, can u tell me how & when these problems started?
I seriously think I have a mental illness. The problems have always been there but I was always able to replace them with someone. All of my voids in life were eventually filled by people. But once those people up and leave me, the void returns. I have two people in my life right now…but I can’t see it as genuine. I constantly feel like they’re out to get me.
Much apologies for my delay
& Thanks 4 ur answer
Okay, can we break this down
[1]
Could we first list the problems / voids
[2]
Then, maybe, talk about the people that used to fill them
& how they left / are not filling them now?
U can start with either but I think [1] is more important & urgent to deal with
[& regarding the “mental illness”, I say, we should try not to jump to conclusions…
If I’d have my go at it,
I’d say you’re a perfectly healthy girl
with a very intelligent mind
& a beautiful soul
<3
]
u still here pretty? 🙁
been a couple of days… u okay ??