Same old making me sick

I have little work to do these days but after I’m done with it I have nothing to do. I can’t DO anything. Literally NOTHING. Music is my one escape and I can’t even really listen to that recently. I’m going to ask my parents to let me do something this summer tomorrow and I hope they say yes. Not like it will make anything better but wish me luck. This fall I will literally be all alone (except my parents) and I hate that. Trying not to let anyone see how everything’s getting to me but it’s so hard. My bitterness, regret, depression…I guess you can’t run from yourself.