The Relapse

May 19th, 2017by violinplayer22

Three years ago, I started this account. Three years ago, I posted my first rant. Today, I’m back. It’s my last day of school. I should be happy, right? Wrong. My friends are all doing something without me, the one person I have always loved isn’t talking to me right now, and my parents don’t care enough to come make sure I’m ok. I’m lost. Somehow, I thought since I had made real friends who loved me that I would be happy. I’m just more depressed than I have been in a long time. Somehow, I thought cutting ties with my best friend would make me feel better. That was dumb. I have no one to go to. I have no one who wants to listen to my problems, and I have no one I hate enough to make them carry me as their burden. I don’t know what I’m doing, or why I’m even still here. Why am I breathing? Why am I not dead yet? I could really use an answer to that question right now, cause I really don’t know anymore.

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