You stand there, feigning a smile. Damn you’re pretty good at it aren’t you? Hiding your struggle. No one would suspect someone quite like you to harbor any negative emotion. No, not you. You’re smiles, laughter. You’re the class clown, the life of the party. So you stand there, mask on. Hiding behind a smile and a joke. You’re bravado is failing you, though. Pieces of your elaborate mask, your work, which you had so much confidence in, is falling away, revealing your weaknesses. The walls come down, friend. And at the end of it all, what did you have? One, maybe two friends? Mediocre grades? A beat down car? Man, you’re really living it up aren’t you? Was it worth it all? You wore a disguise, hid yourself from the world. You played the role of another and was it worth it in the end? Welcome to adult life, man. If wishes were fishes, you’d have a well to drown in.
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Yup. How stupid was I as a kid, thinking life would be wonderful when I was a grown up. I remember being a kid always saying, “I can’t wait to grow up” I use to lie about my age to everyone, saying I was 2-5 years older so that people would think I was older, how funny now that I’m an adult I lie about being 2-5 years younger. I am good at hiding my pain out in public with laughs and jokes and lots of fake smiles.
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Haha thanks for the post. I needed to hear something like this. It reminds me how much I was I treating myself like shit yesterday. Today I want to stay positive no matter what happens. I’m gonna tell that stupid useless voice inside my head to shut the fuck up. It drives me insane, I convince myself that I have to appear a certain way for people. But fuck that BS, I’m not putting up with that today. I’m gonna challenge myself today.