Whenever I can’t sleep at night I often start thinking that I’m gonna die in my sleep. I start thinking that I won’t wake up in the morning and a dark yet familiar feeling takes over me and in a few minutes, I fall asleep. So in other words, the thought of me dying is what helps me sleep. That’s how I get through most nights, hoping to die. It’s sad to think that way but it’s what I hope for and I feel bad for everyone else that wants to die in their sleep, hoping to not wake up the next morning. It’s sad because I know the feeling and I don’t wish it on anyone else but myself.