June 19th, 2017by CodenameR

Why do i feel so sorry for myself? I’m the cause of most of my problems. Sure if can blame my parents for being awful, but that excuse can only go so far. They’re not why I’m such a shitty person. I can only blame myself for that. Ok maybe I’m not the worst, but when all the self-loathing and lack of worth ¬†catches up to me i can’t help seeing everything i do as some grievous sin. Is it any wonder I’m impossible to love? People prove it to me again and again that they don’t care. ¬†But how can they care about a person who doesn’t know what the hell is going on in her own head? Sometimes all i can do is just lay in bed and be swallowed up by self-pity, and really it’s my own fault. Why do i let myself feel this way? Why do i let those feelings take control?

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