All over a Gal

Like any story worth telling this is all about a gal. We were in every single class together for a while and I really learned to love her. We text virtually 24/7 but we never see each other real life. I miss her and I really need her. Now why would one girl make you post on a suicide forum, well because she really is all I have anymore. I was once that annoyingly  happy guy who had everything he wanted but I lost it all. All grandparents all died on me, my father has dementia and can’t even remember my name anymore, I moved schools so much and have ended up with no real friends and nobody (but her) who seems to truly understand me. My poor mum’s best friend just was operated on for a brain tumor and lost 30 years of her memory and it’s tearing my mother apart. We never speak and if we do it’s just an argument. I spend most of my life alone and it drives me crazy. I used to be so social but my depression has only made my (fake) friends feel even less welcome around. I cry every day and I don’t even know why sometimes, what’s wrong with me?

So that’s why she is so important, but everytime I try and reach out to her it doesn’t seem to work. She is the only one who tries to comfort me and the only one who cares.