I’ve only realised and accepted lately how much of a godforsaken awful horrible selfish person I am on the inside… that I’m heartless, cold, immature and selfish… and it’s taken me nearly my entire life to notice this… but now I have…
“dmdd, what are you doing”?
dmdd: “i’m generally gutted about my life, so i thought i would elevate that thought from the internal to the external”
Queue looks of horror.
Sorry. Just thought i’d inject a little humour there. Didn’t mean to offend.
((*psssst* if you do mean to offend at all, by all means, I honestly would not mind one bit. As odd as that sounds, whatever harsh criticism anybody would like to offer me, I’ll be willing to accept. Like I’ve said. I’m a horrid person in general. I’ve finally accepted it. So yes, I’ll take on the criticism.))
dmdd
No. that wasn’t my intention. If i have, then please accept my apology. I frequently post without considering all the ways it could be interpretated. Then when i get a reply like yours, i beat myself up for hours afterwards.
I’m really sorry dmdd. I don’t want to offend anyone on here. I know we are all hurting in some way.
*sighs* I’ve done it again. Making it about myself for the billionth time. I apologise for making that assumption about you. It was wrong. I shouldn’t have taken it out on you.
dmdd
You are not in the wrong. My trouble with posting online is, you can’t gauge someones reaction or intention from just text alone. That’s why if anyone reads my posts, i just want them to know that i mean no malice at all. I joke a lot (perhaps too much) and this site can be the wrong place to do such a thing. I don’t post on social media, or indeed any other forum.
Fuck, could you imagine me on facebook? I quit it after a week.
I take full responsibility. You even said yourself that it was only a little humour. I read it. I should’ve thought more about it. But instead I let myself take offence. I am sorry. This site isn’t the wrong place for humour. I find humour personally heals a lot of things. I guess it’s about watching out who’s on the receiving end. They might be a little toxic, such as myself. Posting online has always been troublesome. I can understand why you’ve quite Facebook. The place is full of people doing nothing more than create drama. My mum describes it as a petty boxing ring. One thing said wrong, it gets shared around Facebook and people are gonna watch you have it out with them.
Indeed.
It’s even worse nowadays, cause you don’t have to be a bloody member and you can still get talked about. Like those fucking ‘spotted’ pages. Wtf. As if peop!e who have anxiety don’t have enough problems already, without strangers commenting on you. It’s way too tiring.
Your mum’s absolutely correct.
I don’t think I will after today. I’m now realising how much I negatively effect others. I remember the amount of times my sister would be bright even to pick out how horrible my personality is. And she’s right. She really really is.
I feel you. How I wish there was a community out there just for people like us, who are oppressed and just plain down on their luck, where we can start a new life and help each other out. A community of sorts where can escape from the madness of the modern world.
We’d all hug, sing depressive hymns about the end of our lives around an open fire, roast marshmallows and weep solemnly as we accidentally burn those marshmallows ’cause why do the bad things always happen to us. It would be like paradise. Except… it’s not paradise… because life sucks anyway.
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I feel you.
Every day I wake its just a death sentence in itself. I’m in a roam free prison.
I just hate myself that much I wish I could gut myself..
I’ve only realised and accepted lately how much of a godforsaken awful horrible selfish person I am on the inside… that I’m heartless, cold, immature and selfish… and it’s taken me nearly my entire life to notice this… but now I have…
“dmdd, what are you doing”?
dmdd: “i’m generally gutted about my life, so i thought i would elevate that thought from the internal to the external”
Queue looks of horror.
Sorry. Just thought i’d inject a little humour there. Didn’t mean to offend.
Think I might start making the books as the worst one on SP so far?
Read “worst” as “obnoxiously annoying”.
((*psssst* if you do mean to offend at all, by all means, I honestly would not mind one bit. As odd as that sounds, whatever harsh criticism anybody would like to offer me, I’ll be willing to accept. Like I’ve said. I’m a horrid person in general. I’ve finally accepted it. So yes, I’ll take on the criticism.))
Midian.. I really can’t tell if you wanted me to feel awful.
People type about their lives on here and I do feel like you’re making me feel bad about doing the same.
dmdd
No. that wasn’t my intention. If i have, then please accept my apology. I frequently post without considering all the ways it could be interpretated. Then when i get a reply like yours, i beat myself up for hours afterwards.
I’m really sorry dmdd. I don’t want to offend anyone on here. I know we are all hurting in some way.
*sighs* I’ve done it again. Making it about myself for the billionth time. I apologise for making that assumption about you. It was wrong. I shouldn’t have taken it out on you.
dmdd
You are not in the wrong. My trouble with posting online is, you can’t gauge someones reaction or intention from just text alone. That’s why if anyone reads my posts, i just want them to know that i mean no malice at all. I joke a lot (perhaps too much) and this site can be the wrong place to do such a thing. I don’t post on social media, or indeed any other forum.
Fuck, could you imagine me on facebook? I quit it after a week.
I take full responsibility. You even said yourself that it was only a little humour. I read it. I should’ve thought more about it. But instead I let myself take offence. I am sorry. This site isn’t the wrong place for humour. I find humour personally heals a lot of things. I guess it’s about watching out who’s on the receiving end. They might be a little toxic, such as myself. Posting online has always been troublesome. I can understand why you’ve quite Facebook. The place is full of people doing nothing more than create drama. My mum describes it as a petty boxing ring. One thing said wrong, it gets shared around Facebook and people are gonna watch you have it out with them.
Indeed.
It’s even worse nowadays, cause you don’t have to be a bloody member and you can still get talked about. Like those fucking ‘spotted’ pages. Wtf. As if peop!e who have anxiety don’t have enough problems already, without strangers commenting on you. It’s way too tiring.
Your mum’s absolutely correct.
Hey
Hi..
You’re in a bad state of mind. You had better days?
I don’t think I will after today. I’m now realising how much I negatively effect others. I remember the amount of times my sister would be bright even to pick out how horrible my personality is. And she’s right. She really really is.
Don’t know what to say
We all have darkness in us. Granted some more than others.
I don’t know you so I cannot say nor am I one to judge.
All I know is that some of us were just not meant for this world.
I know i never was.
I’m ready for. Lights out.
I guess we’re both ready for lights out…
I’m sorry you don’t feel a part of this world..
I’m sorry you feel the way you do.
Its hard to be us and try to live in any fashion.
Somwtimes I wish I was a rabbit. They can make their heart stop at will.
I feel you. How I wish there was a community out there just for people like us, who are oppressed and just plain down on their luck, where we can start a new life and help each other out. A community of sorts where can escape from the madness of the modern world.
We’d all hug, sing depressive hymns about the end of our lives around an open fire, roast marshmallows and weep solemnly as we accidentally burn those marshmallows ’cause why do the bad things always happen to us. It would be like paradise. Except… it’s not paradise… because life sucks anyway.