Catharsis

I don’t really know what to say anymore. I feel the need to express how I feel, like it will gain me some kind of catharsis but it never does. I’m out of words. I hate everyday. I hate everyone; I hate myself most of all. Please can something change? PLEASE. I can’t take this anymore. I’ve done everything you’re supposed to do (prescription drugs, professional help, etc) I’m still doing it. I’ve been strong, I’ve taken this pain and I’ve endured. ENOUGH. FUCKING STOP. I can’t do this. PLEASE SOMETHING CHANGE. I just can’t keep going through the motions. Will this pain ever stop. I don’t think it will. I’ve endured enough. Fuck this defective conciseness for allowing me to feel this way. FUCK YOU. I HATE YOU SO MUCH. I wish you were dead. I wish I was dead. I just really need this pain to stop. Will it ever stop in life. I can’t find the words, I can’t get fucking catharsis. Why am I writing this? Am I really posting this. Why? It doesn’t really matter  does it.