Even on here I feel pretty much alone…

June 19th, 2017by duringmydarkestdays

My eyes are so sore and my stomach is churning. Lately I’ve just felt every strip of happiness torn from me. My heart’s covered in scabs. Everything is empty. I just feel useless at the moment. I can’t even project my thoughts clearly. I’m in a haze and just… 

Had my first few drinks last night and slightly hungover… deciding whether I can muster the strength to drink some more… I just feel so alone… nobody really understands my issues on the outside world… I have no energy… I’m just tired… I just want to sleep… 

Honestly, I’m not even sure if I should even be on this page right now… just feels awkward… hate it… also what the f*ck am I even trying to make a point of..? I just spew up words and expect people to feel sorry for me… to pity me… oh well, guess some could look at me and think “glad I’m not like you.” Apart from that… what am I even doing? 

Eh, maybe soon I’ll get bored and go somewhere else…

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