I failed killing myself so many times and i know what works, and you know what that is? Something you can’t possibly survive. Yeah, my title exactly says everything. Going to the woods tonight next to a river. There’s this tree that’s pretty easy to climb. Tie a rope to the tree and your neck and let yourself drop. Then, its goodbye world. Tired of life. Tired of everything. Tired of pain and suffering so one last time to let it all go. I’m not scared of dying, I’m scared of living, knowing that i will always be in pain and struggling to get by. One of my favorite quotes is by a band, “The cruelest dream is Reality” Wanna hear some irony? I’m full of it. I hate tattoo that says “I’ll die to win because I’m born to Lose” Who would of ever thought, that tattoo would be meant so literally. The only way to win in life is to kill yourself. That’s how i feel at this point. You love perspective, just look it up. Charles Manson’s view on society. Some people are just so woken up, they know this life is a just living hell. There has to be a better world than this. And, I’m leaving it tonight….
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could you, maybe, hold on just a sec…?
I wrote you this before
& I’m writing it again
can u please consider that u’r about to willingly let a window & football out power you & end your life…
i don’t mean to be mean
but i want you to ask urself
is this really how u want to leave?
I agree… hold that thought and chill here a bit
Charles Manson is hardly a role model.
A white supremacist who thought a race war was imminent, instructed his followers to murder others, and has a swastika tattooed on his forehead? Spent the last 30+ years in prison?
Really?
This guy is your prophet?
Follow a tele-tubby instead.
Peace
some of has woken up and we see things a lot different that the norms, they dont see shit like we do, and ya im more scared of living than dying.
life always gets in the way of living and ya it fucking sucks.
but please dont hang ur self, and try to find what your missing.
i wish this forum had private messinger but it dont
Damn, I feel your pain, man. It sounds like your mind is made up. If you do decide to stay, at least a little longer, please let us know that you’re still with us?
Are you sure you’ll be successful with this, because if the drop is insufficient you may end up crippling yourself.
Hopefully you are still here with us.
Peace to you – if you have passed, I hope you are free
If you remain – you are not alone – please don’t think that you are
How is he or any of us not alone? Would you please elaborate? How exactly a bunch of random ppl in the net are going to make him feel any less alone?
Sometimes you can find comfort in those online more than those who know you in real life.
A lot of us on here are suicidal, have dealt with a lot of BS in their lives, suffering from depression, et cetera – it’s better than knowing somebody who just doesn’t get it.
Which has nothing to do with being alone. Once we sign out and back to real life which is what matters, we are alone with our struggles.
Sorry I know what you mean but Im very pissed today.lol
Hey, I currently hate everybody on my friends’ list and would rather not have anybody to accompany me but the delusion that having somebody to talk to online is a lot better than having nobody in the “real world”.
And yep, don’t worry about being pissed. I’m wanting to smash plates up and sleep all day long. Maybe we could team up and create chaos together?
I’m up tp it. I’ve started to execute objects I have in my room one by one. I just randomly choose one and smash it with a hammer. Wanna join?
Smash me with a hammer please?
I’m probably going to keep my mouth closed now, considering the OP is probably going through a lot of pain right now and I don’t think me suggesting to get smashed with a hammer is the best way to support anybody, so… yes I’d join you happily in spirit. Pretend that I’m there with you, and we’re out on the run with a hammer and a baseball bat, beating up trash cans.
We can raise our hammers at smash eachother at the same time.
Yes, such a brilliant idea! Glad I thought of it :))
I feel bad about the fact that you’ve decided to take your own life tonight. I understand life gets hard and all. Sometimes it gets better, someday it improves slightly but the HELL still remains. I wish I were able to do something to keep you here, but at the same time, it’s all about what put you there in the first place.
Do you have any family members to support you? What’s your life like so far? Any reason why you’re choosing to leave us? I’m contemplating my suicide, too. It isn’t that easy because I still feel like waiting on the right moment. I don’t really have much support with what I’m going through. I do have friends, but they aren’t emotionally strong enough to handle it.
I have to say, if you ever want to speak, I’m not here to make decisions for you or anything, but if you ever want somebody who is committed to listening, don’t hesitate to get in touch.
It takes strength to be able to hold another up. If I can be that one to hold you up a little, to make the pain a little less unbearable, give me a chance. I’m no nonsense.
Can someone smash me with a hammer, to death.
Only if you smash me to death with a hammer first. Then we can talk.
Im looking heavily into the helium method for the past few days. There is a lot of failed attempts listed on here. It is supposed to work and be painless. I need to but the books and do more research before i buy everything amd try myself. Just venting. I just joined this last night so your my first hello, hello, hate my life, and my 5th suicide attempt from drugs did not work last weekend.
Hi, and welcome to SP. I’m the resident crazy person.
Lots of things work. Nothing is ever certain, though. Suicide is basically an attempt to kill an unwilling participant. I think that’s how it is, anyhow – it’d explain why everyone is always looking for a painless method. If it’s painless, it’d be no different than laying down and taking a nap. It’s a frustrating thing by nature.
All I have been doing is sleeping by taking a l ot of xanax. I am only at peace when i am aaleep. Minus the fact my nightmares occur from things from my shit life. That is where i have been the past few hours. Asleep. Now im up. And doing more research..
Hey! I’m looking into the helium method as well. I’ve found a place where I can hopefully buy a canister of pure helium.
Awesome! Are you ordering online for this? Or did you find a place by home. Are you buying one tank or two tanks? Were you able to find a place to buy an already made bag? They do not offer them anymore. The group called GLADDD ran by a 91 year old woman got raided and closed down. She then died of old age.
I have a ton of unanswered questions about it but on the other threads about it, no one is there. Maybe they all succeeded and have passed away.. here is some information i gave gotten together thus far. Masks blow off. Bag only. And balloontime companies now mix their helium with 20% air aka no good. Will not be a success. The tank/tanks fully on, thus with the pipe/s inside the plastic bag, when bag is full with helium bring it down, it will be closed at the neck, take 5 to 6 breaths in through youe mouth. Unconciousness within seconds and death they say 3 to 5. Then i watched a youtube video of a lady assisting someone and she said 12 minutes.) Let me know if you would like me to send you the videos I have found.
Here is some information from the man himself, D. Humphries. He answered some peoples questions on a discussion board but i have not came across it again to aak him my own questions.
The flow of gas does not need to be metered.
Do not use tank marked HELIUM/AIR read on container.
The Final Exit DVD is out-of-date only in respect of using helium from Worthington Party Balloon Kits, now diluted. Pure helium can still be obtained from local gas supply companies everywhere.
Yes, 99.5 % helium is effective for .
It is the 20 % diluted helium in party balloon kits. Those ‘bad’ tanks are marked “HELIUM/AIR’
I found a gas distributor near my neighborhood. I’m thinking maybe one tank. And I remember hearing that there was some site that offered kits, but not anymore. I have plenty of heavy duty bags around my house anyway from when I moved.
I was curious about just using an oxygen mask. They blow off, sure… but what if I secured it into place with something like duct tape? I was thinking of using that to secure the bag because it seems more secure than a string. I figure wrapping it around a couple times could secure the gas mask tightly enough. Plus I found a guy selling a whole unused oxygen kit and mask for cheap.
I just sent you a ton of info. My comment is being moderated. Probably will not post….. i think i break the rules on here.
Everywhere i have read, said no to gas masks. Including the man himself d. Humphries who has been doing this for 25 years. He runs final exit. He has a book on it thats been out for 25 years. You can google him. Im going to be buying his e books so i dont get them delivered directly to my house because i live with many others. Here are some videos on how to do it with betty. You dont need a heavy duty bag like one would think. Just a small clear bag. Everything i have watched demonstrates using a turkey oven bag. And if u r wondering if they blow up. They do not blow up. If anything the helium finds a way to leak out the bottom. I will be using elastic on my bag along with a sweatband over that.to make it air tight. In the video she shows how to make a bag and then what to do with the bag. She uses one tank instead of 2. And used a flow regulator she made so i will not be using her method when it comes to one tank. I dont mnow how to make a flow regulator. Humphries says u do not need a floe regulator unless u r using ********. Im getting the correct tubing needed and 2 tanks and connected the tubing by a t junction and taking off the valves and that where u connect your t junction with the tubing.
I saw the video you posted. I wasn’t going to bother with the toggle, just cut a hole in the bag, feed the hose in, then secure the area around it with more tape. Should work just as well, I hope.
I mean it seams to make sense but if that was the case why havent they changed it to that after 25 years of telling us to stick it in the bag. I wonder now. I dont have any equiptment yet. Let me know if it goes wrong please.