After everything I’ve been through, people say I’m strong, or that I should be able to handle anything. Truth is, I just wanna catch a break, even if it’s for just a day. I wish I could make people understand how much it hurts. I’m always in constant emotional pain. I have nightmares, I get flashbacks. Anything that triggers my PTSD is a living nightmare. Everyday I wake up I don’t count my blessings instead, I’m more depressed knowing that now I have to go to work, or actually deal with the day. It isn’t like I haven’t thought about telling my therapist about all of these intrusive thoughts, but I don’t want to be locked in another hospital and be medicated. I feel like a zombie on those things and the amount of time id have to spend away from work would just be terrible. I just wish it was all over.
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I feel you. Wish I could catch a break as well.
I am sorry that you suffer from PTSD.
It would be nice for it to end, but unfortunately it isn’t as easy as it seems.
Hopefully venting here makes you feel a bit better, even if it is a tiny bit.
I’m sorry, I know how painful it is sometimes when people keep saying “you’re strong”. They might want to help, but all I hear is “you should be able to get by as the rest of us, get up and stop complaining, you don’t need help”.
I wish I could help more…
*hugs*