General Im a fall down again by souptool 6/11/2017 written by souptool 6/11/2017 4 months in jail 5 months in rehab Right back where I started Naked and drunk Broke. No food in the fridge. And all I want is more drugs. What the fuck is wrong with me 6 comments 0 Email Related posts I just want to die 10/21/2020 Tonight I feel like sabotaging tomorrow 10/21/2020 A post to lighten the mood (My first... 10/20/2020 Hydrochloric acid and bleach 10/20/2020 Red and Blue 10/19/2020 Cover story needed 10/19/2020 10/19/2020 hopeless 10/19/2020 I failed 10/19/2020 Just feel like a zombie on auto pilot 10/18/2020 6 comments muspelhem 6/11/2017 - 8:33 am bigthink.com/videos/robert-saplosky-one-brain-region-responsible-for-all-the-worlds-problems Log in to Reply Charles 6/11/2017 - 9:32 am I went back and read your post about how you landed in jail. Want to know the first thing that came to my mind? Damn that dude’s life is an adventure. I’m sure you don’t see it that way. But from my point of view (slowly decaying with nothing interesting to show for my life), you got a lotta style. In your honor I might also steal something worthless and lead the cops on a chase. Yea right, me. Anyway, props for having no fear. You remind me of the hero in Camus “The Stranger” ha. Log in to Reply Icarus 6/11/2017 - 10:14 am I’ve always wanted to read “The Stranger”. Also, LOOK HOW CREEPY I AM! Log in to Reply Charles 6/11/2017 - 11:25 am I don’t read much because I have a lousy attention span, but that book is pretty short. Required reading for anyone who’s feeling like the universe is pointless and nothing matters. The hero keeps getting himself into trouble but he doesn’t care so he’s like “meh whatever”. Maybe that’s the only way to make it through life. Log in to Reply Chip 6/11/2017 - 3:51 pm I guess your tolerance is just very very high and you haven’t reached the breaking point, or “rock bottom”, as it’s more aptly described. Each of us can only endure so much before something gives. Log in to Reply beautifulmonster 6/11/2017 - 4:34 pm The day I realised I was an addict REALLY TRUELY realised it felt like a shit load of bricks fell on me and then came off. Weird feeling. Such a relief. As chip said you haven’t hit rock bottom. I read what you wrote. But we’re humans. If you weren’t naked and broke and had food… still take drugs? As I got told really annoyingly in rehab. No one takes drugs if there life is fine/good or they are happy. Something is going on deep inside you… (what?) I just got off H again. I would stay on it forever just so I could die one day. But I went broke instead. And trust me I miss it like I lost a friend. A bad friend though. It’s F**ked being an addict. NA… millions of people can’t be wrong…. somehow it works Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.