4 months in jail
5 months in rehab
Right back where I started
Naked and drunk
Broke. No food in the fridge.
And all I want is more drugs.
What the fuck is wrong with me
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I went back and read your post about how you landed in jail. Want to know the first thing that came to my mind? Damn that dude’s life is an adventure.
I’m sure you don’t see it that way. But from my point of view (slowly decaying with nothing interesting to show for my life), you got a lotta style. In your honor I might also steal something worthless and lead the cops on a chase. Yea right, me. Anyway, props for having no fear. You remind me of the hero in Camus “The Stranger” ha.
I’ve always wanted to read “The Stranger”.
Also, LOOK HOW CREEPY I AM!
I don’t read much because I have a lousy attention span, but that book is pretty short. Required reading for anyone who’s feeling like the universe is pointless and nothing matters. The hero keeps getting himself into trouble but he doesn’t care so he’s like “meh whatever”. Maybe that’s the only way to make it through life.
I guess your tolerance is just very very high and you haven’t reached the breaking point, or “rock bottom”, as it’s more aptly described. Each of us can only endure so much before something gives.
The day I realised I was an addict REALLY TRUELY realised it felt like a shit load of bricks fell on me and then came off. Weird feeling. Such a relief. As chip said you haven’t hit rock bottom. I read what you wrote. But we’re humans. If you weren’t naked and broke and had food… still take drugs? As I got told really annoyingly in rehab. No one takes drugs if there life is fine/good or they are happy. Something is going on deep inside you… (what?) I just got off H again. I would stay on it forever just so I could die one day. But I went broke instead. And trust me I miss it like I lost a friend. A bad friend though.
It’s F**ked being an addict. NA… millions of people can’t be wrong…. somehow it works