My note when my time comes

So this is just a copy and paste from a song that i found. This portion is extremely relevant to me, and maybe you can find this relatable to what youre going through.

This is “her last words” by courtney parker.
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She sees the note and unfolds it with care
All she does is stare, “How can this be fair?”
She starts reading as the tears roll down her face
“I’m sorry Mom but this world is just not my place

I’ve tried for so long to fix this and fit in
I’ve come to realize this world’s full of sin
There’s nothing for me here, I’m just a waste of space
I’ve got no reason to stay here with this awful race

It’s a disgrace, I was misplaced
Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place
It’s OK though, ’cause you’ll see me soon
You’ll know when your time has come, just look at the moon

As it shines bright throughout the night
And remember everyone’s facing their own fight
But I can’t deal with the pain, I’m not a fighter
You’ll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter

So let the world know, that I died in vain
Because the world around me, is the one to blame
And I know in a year, you’ll forget I’m gone
‘Cause I’m not really something to be dwelled on

That’s what they used to tell me, all those kids at school
So I’m going by the law majority rules
My presence on this earth is not needed any longer
And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger

You’re the best friend that I ever had
Such a shame I had to make you so very sad
But just remember that you meant everything to me
And to my heart, you’re the only one that held the key

Now it’s time to go, I’m running out of space to write
And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight
I’m watching over you from the clouds above
And sending down the purest and whitest dove

To watch over you, and be my helpful eye
So this is it, world, goodbye.”