I was in the meditative state today and I just wondered why I have to go back. Why I can’t stay in this state. I had no answer to this. This state is everything I can ever hope for. Calm, peaceful, satisfactory. Then why I go back? Why I must go back? It’s probably my being human. I am a human being, that’s why I have to go back. Is it the lust? It’s like itching, keeping in background, calling me to scratch it and get lost in pleasure. The juice, the bittersweetness. Human world is a mess. Who would willingly want to go in it. Only forgetfulness and sleep can make me go there again. Yes, if nothing works, sleep is its ultimate weapon.
But I am also hopeful because of a good observation. It, this meditative state, is coming to me more and more naturally. I no longer have to force anything or sit forcefully with hands folded for it to come. Just a little attention, just a little distancing from world and a little focusing and it comes. And when it takes over it feels like my primary nature. Earlier I had to pay a lot of attention for it to stay, but now it stays on its own.
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You are truly blessed, most of us can’t reach that level of meditation. Care to share how you get there??
It was some 5 years ago that I began meditation. I tired and practiced very diligently at that time (maybe because I was suffering a lot at that time). I think that helped me somehow get the crux of meditation. I did it the buddhist and zen way – sitting with hands folded in lap, one leg over the other, witnessing the breath or whatever thought comes in mind. The main point is witnessing. Witness whatever is coming. Try not to get involved in thought. If get involved, just remind yourself and comes back again. It is always better to focus on and witness breath because it’s easy. The rising and falling of breath. Posture doesn’t matter that much. being comfortable is more important. So you may sit against wall for support as well. I would recommend keeping one hand over other in lap because it sort of creates an energy loop and fills the body with energy. Atleast that’s how I felt. Keep practicing and things will grow.
I don’t know if that’s what you were asking. If you meant something else, kindly tell.
Meditation is our Ariadne’s thread in this mad, mad world, isn’t it?
Yes. You put it very aptly. For me, it is the only trustworthy thing in this illusory world. My one and only solution to all problems. The only skill I have acquired in my life, the only weapon in my hands using which I fight.