Do you hold on to a lot of anger and resentment, even from years ago? Have you been screwed over by someone (family, friends)? Who are the people that have wronged you and what have they done to you that you cannot forgive?
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Yes, and sometimes I’m terrified of going into a full-blown rage whenever I see him. I hate him that much, I want to make his life SHIT. I’m so tempted to cuss the fuck outta him. GRRRRRRR!
Dude back in middle school who made his life’s purposes to screw over mine. He didn’t even know me, but he’d do everything to make me understand that I am the lowest scum in this world. I don’t think of him much anymore, but when I do I swear to myself that one day I will rip his heart out like in one of those Aztec human sacrifices. (not actually)
Nobody has wronged me. I do not hold resentment. Although, that does not mean I don’t want to commit suicide, because I very much do, but for me and not because of something someone did to me.
My father and my father’s second wife, they’re both crap. I don’t know, I’m not going to get into too much detail. I just hope…nah I won’t say it…I’m a good girl 🙂
Some teachers and kids from school. Bullying from kids and ignored by teachers when I needed help.
Sometimes I think my life would’ve been different if people weren’t so selfish. I know I need to let go of that anger but I feel like if I don’t direct it towards someone else I direct it towards myself. Letting it go completely is extremely difficult.
Hatred hurts you more than any other person, though it’s hard to let it go, so when you face the worst of betrayals, forgiveness is harder than anything.
In the end, though, as long as you hate they keep their power over you, influencing your life and behaviour even if they have no longer any place in your life.
I can honestly say if I could forgive/forget then I would be completely cured. But it’s not a choice. You can go through the motions, pretend like it’s in the past and you’re over it, even accept apologies (not that I ever got any), but you can’t control when some random trigger will send you into a rage just like the day it happened.
Of course, there is always at least one person, if not a bunch, who will say you should or MUST forgive the other person, yadda yadda. It’s not like people WANT to keep the anger; it’s not a choice. Imagine you got raped. Or someone badly hurt you in some nasty way. If something like that happens to you, it’s not like you CHOOSE to hold on to the anger or hate. You just fucking hate that person that did that to you. People always say “but you HAVE to forgive the other person.” Says people who’ve never had someone who’ve wronged them or stole their life away from them.
No, just no. It’s the same thing as telling a depressed person to “just snap out of it.” Anger is as much of a non-choice as being depressed. We can’t just CHOOSE to be happy. Who the hell DOESN’T want to be happy? And who the hell WANTS to be angry? Who doesn’t want to be happy, carefree, and light-hearted?
Forgive, possibly, given enough time. Forget, that is never going to happen! I will never forget, because when I do. I am vulnerable to having the same thing/person hurt you all over again. I don’t like to get into details, because that usually puts me right back into the emotional turmoil all over again…
I have one: GOD. I will NEVER forgive him for creating me and all the horrible things he has done to me and other people too. I just simply CANT forgive god for being the way he is.
I can’t forgive myself, for all my hatred and pride. I can’t forgive the people I have loved for wanting to be with me, ignoring my warnings about who I am,and what I really feel. I can’t forgive those that died and left me behind.