I feel like everything is imploding and I’m so stressed but I just want it all to stop and it’s not going to. I am trying to live but it’s hard. I am trying to do something for me but the bank is making it super hard and all of this feels impossible. I just want to die but only like 10%. most of me knows this feeling will pass and return and pass and return. It’s wearing me down but I continue marching forward because that Is what I’m supposed to do, because there are some good times in life. because as long as i can hold on to those I can move forward. I really wish things would end so i didn’t have to struggle anymore but know that’s not reason enough for it. I’m very lucky to have all of the things I have in my life and I will be ok. Everything has to be ok. I just need to keep going.