Today…

June 3rd, 2017by GerbzBaby

I felt today didn’t start so good. I told my two friends I didn’t want to hang out because I was in a depressed mood (told them I didn’t feel well) and I had to clean. But they ended up showing up at my house anyways. I agreed to go but I told my sisters not to come even though my friends asked them to come (I get jealous and lonely when I, my sisters and my friends hang out together.. all they do is pay attention to them.. but that’s another story). The whole time I felt horrible. Horrible for not letting my sisters come and not being able to talk as much as I do. I felt boring. I feel they would have had more fun with my sisters than they did with me. I wanted to leave so badly. Eventually I did when we got take out and came to my house. I told them before I promised to hang out with my best friend around the same time they dropped me off. They left early and I felt extremely disappointed in myself for not being able to be interesting..

But on the other hand my best friend turned my day around. We went to his house, took a road trip to his aunts house and escaped death twice.. all in one day. I felt a lot better but I still can’t help but feel guilty about not wanting to hang out with my other two friends… I feel like I could be less boring… I’ll never be as good as my sisters…

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