I have decided today is the day and today I am going for it….. or rather now is the moment and in this moment I am going for it….
TO THE END!
If there is any justice, I will not be back….I will no come back and I will be dead… breathe in, breathe out, that is all there is too it….
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Thanks for responding to my posts, you were the most frequent, I hope you find peace.
You are more than welcome and I honestly hope you find your piece…and I hope anything I said, will help you on some level.
At least then, my existent would not be in vain.
I just wanted to say thanks for being such a nice person.
I hope you change your mind, and if you do, we will be right here welcoming you back (if you want to come back to SP).
I think you can turn your life around, sometimes things can look bleak, but you never know what new avenues will open up to you.
Thank you for those words….if honestly 100% resason that I am still here after my exit, I will let you all know…that way:
1) you know I failed and I am still here
2) that way I can honestly tell you hopefully why I failed and what can be done to fix that.
3) because in the 2 yrs that I have been here, all of you gave me support, no matter how dark my life has been; you all gave me something that I could not find in IRL… You gave me friendship and understanding
In my will, I have asked that anything I have left be donated to this site; so help others like me, whether to live or die….we all that basic right I think.
thank you to both of your post, they honestly mean a lot.
To ShiSui, I honestly hope you find a method and the peace you are looking for, I really do.
Muspelhem, I have enjoyed reading so many of your post….I spend more time here than I care to admit….as I love to read. I only recently joined but your post always make me stop and think.
And I hope you as well find the peace you deserve and want.
Sadly, I can honestly say, that all my family is deceased and that makes life harder than it was before. But I also know through out my 30 some odd years; which I know is still so young, that I have tried it all and seem to have failed…. whether that be the system or myself, I am unsure at this point. All I know is that I am so grateful for this site and it’s members….I have been on here for over two years now….once I went by another user name and then left and came back at this person…mainly because I didn’t know what to say.
All I can say and hope for is one day, for people like us all will have the option to opt out of this world without being prosecuted on any and all factors.
For once, let the “good” guys win, no matter how fucked up we are.
For now…I wish you all the best…all of you that is, as I hope and “pray” to catch my final wave… I see from the wind that it should be good within the next couple of hours, which is when I plan to head out….
If I can within those next couple of hours, be able to post and speak to any and all of you, I will.
For this site has given me more than a safe place to retreat but also given me a sense of self as time as gone on and the darkness takes over.
Thank you to each and everyone of you.
I honestly, mean that.
I wish you the best as well. Whatever that would mean for you.
This is sad though because I know it wouldn’t be fair or helpful to ask you not to do it.
Also I don’t know you. It’s strange though how we don’t know each other and still feel so many times, through so many posts and words that we can relate, in some ways.
Sometimes our deadwishes are the glue that makes us stick here, to life. This makes no sense but I needed to write it down.
Life makes no sense but somehow I need to stay in it, for now.
Again, I don’t know you, but I feel close to you now.
Thank you for being here.
*hugs*
I wish you the best as well. Whatever that would mean for you.
This is sad though because I know it wouldn’t be fair or helpful to ask you not to do it.
Also I don’t know you. It’s strange though how we don’t know each other and still feel so many times, through so many posts and words that we can relate, in some ways.
Sometimes our deadwishes are the glue that makes us stick here, to life. This makes no sense but I needed to write it down.
Life makes no sense but somehow I need to stay in it, for now.
Again, I don’t know you, but I feel close to you now.
Thank you for being here.
*hugs*
Thank you for sharing on this site. Your words have been a comforting, almost familiar voice. I have felt near to you, and a few others in the short time I have been here. Such a sweet sad scattered family hoping to see you again and wishing you peace. It’s the kind of family I long for, saying “be free, farewell but we’d love to see you again.”
I feel as though I have been too late. I only knew you for a short while, but I will miss you. Take care. Namaste.
Goodbye, FM. I hope you found your peace already. Take care and keep tight, wherever you are now.
I hope you don’t. It was a breath of fresh air having you post around. At least it made this site lively and gave a sympathetic ear to anyone who needed it.
Fractured Mind, are you still here?…
I usually have a hard time crying over the departure of someone who I have not met in person, I have a hard time crying over a lot of things, but reading this has brought tears to my eyes so it must be true… you must have already found peace… goodnight, Fractured Mind.
I feel the same…
Thank goodness I’m not the last to post… it was beginning to feel very empty on here…
I just cannot fathom why this post still stings a lot… I have come back here a few times since first reading it… I haven’t felt much hurt for something like this before… it was always difficult to connect to those I have never met on a personal level, but this one feel like a raw wound…
Same here. I’m not one to feel easily sad over but I emphathize with people like these. If there is a God, I hope thode who mistreated get their just due in the end. This is why I’m a firn believer that there is an afterlife, a heaven and a hell. It’s just unjust that those who ruined his life get no retribution. Not being tortured as punishment for what they did to him is just too unjust and we all know they deserve every bit of retribution in the afterlife.
It’s really sad that you had to go. I hope you didn’t go through with it. All we need is someone to comfort us and not judge us in the lowest points in our lives. This also hurts because I emphathize what you’re going through. Seeing someone take their life because they were oppressed and betrayed strikes me at a personal level because I’m going through what you’re going through. I guess there comes a point in a person’s life that they just have enough. May your days be left in peace. Everyone wants that, whether through life or death. Everyone just wants peace