I don’t know since when I’m starting to dislike my friends.
They don’t even care. They isolate me, they talk about me behind my back, they don’t give a shit about me. I’m just really tired of it. I feel like I’m the only one putting effort into the relationship and they just took my for granted. They make me feel like shit as well and I start to question why I even exist, why do I have to live when no one cares. There’s no point in living anymore. There’s this one time where I cried myself to sleep every night because of how lonely and isolated I am. I just want to die and not care about anything else, I don’t want to live again because it’s so tiring and I’m seriously so sick of it.
I don’t know if I should leave my friends because if I leave them, I won’t have any other friends, and I don’t want to be lonely, I just want someone to care. One true friend is better than having millions of fake friends, can someone please tell me what I can do?
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If your friends “make you feel like shit”, then you should leave them. It’s far better to be alone, than to be with people that break you down. And anyway, there are people out there that will be your friend, in every sense of the word. It may take some time, but you can find them.
Drop them, others will come…
Expand your circle of friends.
These sound like really toxic friends. Better leave them. I did without any regret.
It’s lonely but better.
Being lonely is 10 times worse, though you could leave toxic relationships and find other ones that share common interests. Also, go to therapy or some spiritual sessions. It will help you unload what’s on your chest and make you feel better. Contrary to your belief, you’re not the only one with this problem. I too have been purposely isolated and have had my reputation destroyed by those whom I considered closest to me. The problem is, people change and once they move up career-wise other people become huge, walking, bloated egos. Rest assured, it has nothing to do with you and it has more to do with them. If you are still young and already experiencing this, then the better because at least you still have time to expand your friendships and circles and start anew. Older people starting in their 30s find it hard to make new friends because they have to start all over again. Count yourself lucky if you’re still young.
“They don’t even care. They isolate me, they talk about me behind my back, they don’t give a shit about me.”
This is pretty common. I still haven’t found the answer to dealing with that.
“I don’t know if I should leave my friends because if I leave them, I won’t have any other friends, and I don’t want to be lonely, I just want someone to care.”
I think we all want someone to care but that seems to be the most difficult thing to find.
“To be, or not to be: that is the question: Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles . . .”
You have to find what is more bearable to you: remain with “friends” who treat you the way they do or be by yourself until you find true friends who are very difficult to come by.
PS: Not directly applicable but you can extrapolate to your circumstances
https://www.brainpickings.org/2013/11/04/hunter-s-thomspon-letters-of-note-advice/