Yesterday the transmission went out on my work truck. To be clear my work truck is my favorite vehicle I have ever driven. It has a great motor, good build, just needs to be better taken care of. That is difficult to do when one drives several hundred miles a week on a 20 year old truck. So today after 5 hours of hard driving it just gave up. Of course, like me, it will go get taken care of and put back together. Given that this is the most expensive part of owning a truck…. hopefully things get better from here.
Every word other than the word “yesterday” was written… yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play, as the bard says.
Today we are in potential mourning. This stage has no literature in the DSM or in Alcoholics Anon.
I must deal with the potential loss of my most valuable asset. It becomes clear that it is a thing. Yet this thing had life, use, and I had dreams for how I might use her. This loss may be temporary, yet it remains as painful as any loss of things close to me. I seriously thought about ending it over this, petty as it is. It pains me to lose access to my favorite vehicle of all time. I have many hours invested. Yet no matter how invested we are, companies, cars, and even human beings sometimes die or go into a coma. Then we deal with the loss. That’s the process. For now… limbo… hoping for the best, prepping for the worst.
Devo summed up my mindset: “Don’t you lose it, now listen to us, don’t you lose it, remember to take:
Time out for fun
Time out for fun”
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Get a new one dude, 20 yrs should be on it’s last legs. It costs exponentially more to fix an older car/truck than buying a new/slightly used one.
I got an old 4-banger that’s almost done, I need it to hang on for a few more months…I’m getting a 2016 Honda Civic EX…my mechanic was actually excited for me since it’s such a good car.
not the case for one ton trucks. Transmission runs 2-3k. New truck is upwards of 50k Even a nice used one is more than 5k, I am deeper in this truck than the cost to fix.
tough day 😐
I’m sorry you had to go through this…
it’s okay
I pray you could fix it just fine & things get much better very soon 🙂
also
if you could
do consider the idea of getting a new one
if it’s close to ur heart & don’t wanna sell it
& u could afford to
you could still fix it but keep it for very light transportation around your neighborhood
save the hard labor for another / a new car
good suggestion but I think the tranny would be pretty costly…he could sell the truck for parts since he said engine was good.
I get the emotional attachment, I’m grateful to my car for getting me through some tough times but it’s a machine, it has no feelings/conscience.
One has to make a wise decision based on one’s financial situation-feelings should be the last factor to consider. Unless he could keep it as an antique or something, unless it has no value.
wise thinking…
well said 🙂
Thanks and likewise. 🙂
Yep, as per update I am thinking about replacement/temporary options. It is true, I don’t NEED to work. No one HAS to work, none of us are slaves. My folks have placed the burden heavily on me. It sits pretty dang heavy, I’ll tell ya.
Yet I have said I can learn to fix it. I can learn any dang thing in the world. While I’m waiting to fix it, I can get a commuter car or scooter, either would be fine with me…. we’ll find out on monday since we got no estimate from the guy. It amuses me how the rest of us are at the mercy of the one guy in town with the technical knowledge. He’s probably the real king of us all.
Sir, ..or madam..or sir, I believe the departure of one thing or person is usually a sign of the better to come. It’s not a goodbye, it’s graduation and those memories will always be with you, alive, every time you think about them. A crisis may actually be a blessing in disguise. Hold tight.